8am : our ct posting came out
den i luffed n cried all e way till 10+
longest record. muz haf been damn mad.
alright, today sch was slightly better.
orientation finally started, tml gotta meet e class.
saw liling n ama quite a few times.
was in OG8 den saw junyi, wang hao n kai xiang, all frm nhps.
familiar faces haha.

so hopefully i'm given maths, phy, chem n mta.
pls dun gimme econs. pls pls~
was @ tchs canteen wif grace, yc n mei fang.
realise mei fang everything oso so similar to me. e.g. we've been crying for days. haha
den grace n i were lookin at e locust cards.
i randomly picked one, here's e words on it
let bygones be bygones.
let tomorrow be a brand new beginning.
yesterday is gone and there's nothing you can do about it.
how true hur. esp e last line.
so this is some kind of a hint.
but i'm quite enlightened liao.
juz gotta keep tinkin tt i'm a damn lucky girl.

anyway thnx to loads of peeps who've been listening.
sorry tt i keep complaining n ur name not mentioned.
thnx loads to liling for listening to me tt day,
to tink i cried[again] in front of u in e outer plaza.
n it was so great having someone to keep calling my name everytime i walk pass u. heehee!

was @ godsis' hse ysd.
tok to her n i cried again.
tink she felt kind of guilty coz
she kept marketing hc but cant blame her
none of us knew bt tt dumb criteria
i chose to get psychoed by ppl
n i chose tt dumb nice name tt isnt going to work out.
had sushi wif godmum n godsis last last night.
den stayed at godsis hse. ysd watched a movie @ her hse,
quite nice lor. but thru out i juz keep tinkin bt goin to sch
ate seafood at night. still tinking

see? i've got determination haha!
somehow i still xiao bu chu lai
even if i'm smiling/luffing i'm still tinking bt it.
e feeling's so sour, duno how to describe it.
read ppl's blog. ppl frm nj
ppl treasure all e time dey haf n dey cry when dey cant stay
i complain all e whole n den i regret. finally i cry coz i chose somewhere else.
i'll try to lyk hc. maybe i will sooner or later.
but i duno why i haf to face all this

thnx everyone who cared. i tink i've got some serious attitude problem n needs counselling ha
somehow my mum didnt care much
pray hard some miracle happens on monday.

second session.WARNING : u're going to hate me
cant take f maths. coz i didnt take in 1st 3 mths.
tears juz start welling in my eyes
everytym i tink bt tt.
liling's right.
i'm right on e top of the steps, nj's juz a step lower
there're so many ppl right at the bottom.
i've got the chance to choose
n itz a wrong decision
~be stronger~
juz hope dey dun gimme econs.
good for slave now tt he can write a letter
to try to drop LEP.
congrats n lucks. i'm still stuck here.

Mr Isaac Koh Siong Fei (HOD/Arts) is a fako!
ysd he was all nice n sweet, telling us tt we MUZ put down out hp no in case dey cant give us e combi we want.
n today he scolded me coz honest me told him tt i put odd combi for 2nd choice.
den he frowned,"didnt i tell u not to do tt ysd?"
so i nicely repeated wat he said ysd
bald isaac went "if everyone does tt
n i gotta call them up,
when will i finish my job? if i
cant give you anything,
do you want me to kick you out of hwa chong?"
i really wanted to say yes but i
havent submitted any appeals
heng i'm not in ARTS
so wat if he cant finish his job
my prob?

attended a few talks den went nj.
missed their mass dance, wanted to learn leh.
den followed sy's OG. tink she damn cham
can see she trying her best liao.
saw mr. 19 finally.
but was dancing wif some
girl frm his OG. *grits teeth*
nvm i cant stay anyway

i hope mon will be better.
i tink my life is some kind of a joke.
n yes i'm materialistic.
i tink even e o's result is some kind of a joke.
thnx arh.

itz ms ng's b****ing session again.
lesson : shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu
got into nj n wanted hc.
took tri sci n wanted double maths.
e o's was shocking gd n hc sounds damn nice.
den e pearls was gone. one pt out for "why-you-choose-hc"
den now i cant take double maths. becoz i didnt take it in e first 3 mths
n there aren't make up lectures for tt.
there u haf it, other than being in a sch tt make ppl go "wow",
i'm some kind of a sucky, complete idiot
halleluiah

orientation's on next mon n tues.
most of e njcians in hc felt so out of place.
den i realise most of us wants to appeal back.
not tt hc is tt bad lah, but we didnt spend our 3 mths there. so no offence peeps.
itz juz my case. n whoever's.

hi to slave.
didnt noe u're blabbered's devoted reader
thnx for e choc[both the white n e african black]
but i really dun lyk white choc.
thnx to u tt i only saw Mr. 19's
backview for e last time.
n i lyked ur voicemail, sounded damn funny.
n herez our screwed first day in JC coz...
he's in LEP *luffz* we should really try jumping down tt bridge, e side wif dead flowers
ok things are not so bad rite. muz look on e bright side.
so letz take e side wif e blooming flowers. haha~
we muz look at ppl more unfortunate than us.
*psychos myself* i haf arms n legs.
i haf a sch to go to.
why dey always give me things tt i dun ask for?
i tink i'm regretting.
ok i'm not.

start of holi!
ate damn a lot today, AGAIN.
i duno wat to do wif myself, such a failure.
anyway, went ps.
saw dodo n we walked arnd n he told me tt dumb joke bt "tok tok qiang!"
den u're suppose to luff so i luffed e whole day n i went mad saying "tok tok qiang"
when lijia called him, he lied tt he tot we were suppose to meet 1 hr later.
den lijia got really pissed.
den she called me n i claimed i was at home too.
saw ced n lijia sitting inside starbucks den we sat outside
acting lyk we're on business deals.
dead funny. den went into cafe cartel for fellowship dinner[wif chee siong n shaun]
shared lasagne, st louis ribs n this pasta wif dodo n lijia.
see? i ate alot. but e food's nice. heehee~
start of dinner i kept doing e "tok tok qiang" wif e pens provided den everyone tot i was mad.
dodo gave me e treat! taking it as belated b'day[last yr's] FANKS! =]]
den dey went to watch million dollar baby n i went home.

going m'sia tml wif godsis.
hee~ hope i'll haf some fun. dead tired now.

watched 叶串之声 wif ching li ysd.
didnt lyk e first 2 stories, lotsa scenes wif ppl quarrelling.
the last one's nicest but i was dozing off by then coz it was already 9+pm.

haf lunch wif pei n vv @ holland v!!
n.y.d.c. is soooo cheesy~~
haha... had baked pasta n really craved for one of their mudpies/cakes but cldnt.
went to crystal jade for dessert after tt.
real sinful day yah?

so in love wif get right and almost here now.
to-do-list for march holi!
-tidy my room
-catch up syllabus
-enjoy life a bit
-shed 1 kg
-buy a few cds
-finish some 'work'

i really need to revise my work.
have been ponning sch/lessons since last wk.
missed 2 wks' of bio lectures n lotsa phy cum chem.
n tt chem quiz/test was another killer.
juz tt itz worse this time rnd. am so glad i passed e first test.

if u dun dislyk me, do me a favour by stop asking why i chose hci instead of nj.
coz i tink i'm regretting now since e PEARLS' gone.
bad timing of decision-making(s).

ate sakae wif part of asg n peiying today.
was dead full, had a great luff too. esp when e 2 HUGE plates of watermelon came i was lyk,"OMG!"
looked damn horrifying. but enjoyed ourselves.
tml's lyk e last day of sch le.
duno if i shd go. bit xian diao but...
since itz e last day, shall be there to see my darling frenz i've made in this 2 mths.
real nice ppl,
most of them. but i haven buy anything yet! not even a simple card!!!
but anyway i'm gonna pon bio.
chew took my paper today. den asked me if i knew watz a thykaloid. i said yes when i didnt even attend e lecture.

i haf to bad feeling tt this ** girl tinks tt my 19 is swai too.
yes i used MY!!! ok tink too much.
anyway i tink my temper is getting worse.
or rather my character as a whole.
this is bad.
duno watz wrong wif me. maybe one day u're gonna call me a b****. *goes crazy*

came across this senior's blog. realised shez e one who interviewed me.
ha i tink i was damn attitude during e interview *oops*
sorry, if dey eva read this.

i'm watching keita!
yes again but... the older him.
tink hez looks are getting worse, he better go cut his hair.
or rather i prefer tt look. but i cant decide for him. i wish. hee~
but... i love the way he
dances. n sings. n sounds. n looks. n smiles. n winks.
he plays soccer n piano! woho~
i tink yuan yuan/uncle luah juz called me a s** maniac ysd.
i bet nicobra is nodding his/her head non-stop now.

gd news is mrs ng's hse-trashing party is postponed to end of yr.
heehee~ cant wait for holi to come man.
n i wun wan it to end.

5 march
after 6 days of ponder, i put hci as first den nj as second.
den i felt kind of sad. parents came home n my mum[damn irritated by my indecisiveness]
made sure i registered.
she was happy of coz, hci sounds so much better than nj.
but my dad was lyk expressionless. i can feel tt hez quite disappointed.
ttz a long story but itz lyk all along,
hez e only one who genuinely cared bt me going somewhere i lyk.
next siamese came online.
toked to her n i cried in front of e com.
heng nobody saw tt.
itz saddening, really.
will miss u lots siamese. HEY!

7 march
went rj wif jin[sorry ppl if i told u i had headache]
dead heng coz it was raining so there wasnt flag raising.
but both of us felt damn weird there.
almost all e guys in all white uni, almost all e girls in RG uni.
we're lyk 2 odd-one-out walking abt.
saw geri n ced there. CRABS! =]]]] sat in e hist lecture wif geri n e faculty was so small, it was prob only 5 classes[jc size]
n apparently e teacher can rmb ppl's faces so at e end of e lecture, she suddenly said,"eh! how come i didnt see those 3 ppl sitting behind?!"
den jin n i were lyk... die...
den she suddenly said,"oh u ppl are frm sci, switching to arts?"
den we juz nodded.

so e sch is DAMN huge. e air-con really works.
in nj, u might suffocate, esp in LT1. ha~
ok but i lyk nj.

8 march
we pushed a row of tables in front of e first row so tt therez barrier btwn us n tt chew.
den she suddenly said A stands for ASS so everyone went ass-ing for mcq.
den fishball will add "hole" after someone gives e ans "ass"
e echoing was damn funny.
den wee loon said "adiya" n "chee yen"
chew burst out luffing twice.
shez mad today, muz be!
yeah, btw i lyk today's chem lecture. haha.

dun ask me why.
[this applies to e reason why i chose hci too]

i will not regret

right i forgot bt sth.
F3 is nh's top scorer!
gong xi gong xi!
yah i bet u're too fat for e guys to throw u into e air,
who tell ur brain so huge eh? *luffz*

i keep changing my mind.
itz been 6 days n tml's the last.
i hope i can go register by tonight.
and i dun wan to regret.

juz bought w-inds. - prime of life concert dvd ysd.
watched it n went hysterical.
ttz e first time i finally understood e lyrics in dedicated to you
so sad, the girl in e song died.
keita looked dead sad oso haha.

my mum is sick of me.
she juz told me sui bian n choose one sch.
i duno wat to do.

i feel lyk i'm gonna cry

okok itz finally over.
seriously i am dead shocked. i still am.
but at least itz gd. i think itz some kind of miracle.
wahla~ thnx to sia n pandian. dey rock =]

went out for lunch juz now. soo full.
itz western n tt lobster didnt look huge but i cldnt finish it.
now my waist is gone AGAIN!.

letz do a poll... tell me if i shd go hc or stay in nj.