today was fun! bui zais ate at lao mei zi and we jus zammed dumplings, meat balls and fish. haha madness but the soups were spicy! my lips were seriously numb. didnt do much crazy stuff but it was nice meeting them =] thanks for coming people~ and i like my peanut sauce.

tried making ya-kun toast today, fail. maybe cos my toast was too hot so e butter melted. crap. shall try again for tml breakfast. =]

updated my passbook today. WHY I SPENT SO MUCH! for month of april, i aspire to save $450. pls support yan-ting-gg-japan-and-marrying-jin plan. HAHAHAHA! esp jin/jinnie, u shd contribute more! and PLEASE START STUDYING!!! i need to do some self-persuasion therapy. as if its gg to work on me.

SI BEH TIRED! finally can slp till shiok tml.
i tink my english is bad. esp my spoken one. wats wrong!

some people are just not funny. and they try too hard.
some people are just qian da, you tell them to start early and they ignore you. *looks at the calendar*

im so tmd stressed out ysd i worried bt hw111 till abt 3am and i woke up suddenly at 6am and started worrying about 203 all the way until 8am. HOW BAD IS THIS. and now theres 202 and 200. how to do 200 YOU TELL ME! need to read notes this wkend but i haf no time~
suddenly i kind of dread gg bukit timah for tuition. SOOO FAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR. OK STOP COMPLAINING.

hope next wk's hp203 n hw111 presentations will be good.
anyway the NEW HSS LIB is damn nice. no need to push the stupid trolley up slopes anymore. and the toilet bowls are super high-tech. not super but more high-tech than those you see in sg normally. it washes n dries ur butt. can control water pressure somemore lol. only bad thing is its bisexual cubicles. cant guys just seriously use the toilets properly?? and if u dont want to put down the seats, can you at least NOT leave any trails of urine behind? because when its yellow, its obvious its urine. gosh, feels as if even my blog is stained. oops i tink im complaining again. i saw someone(s) in the lib~

I AM REALLY GG TO SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT AND NO MORE BINGEING!

first psych outing! turnout of 4. HAHAHA! watched Crows Zero with Joy and the KAT-TUN *****s. lol.
the show's nice, except for some exasggerated fighting scenes and i dont really know if its suppose to be a comedy but i kept laughing. oguri shun has seh, esp when he walked in e rain. but i found 2 great actors too, maybe the 2nd one not so much cos i haven watch him act in other shows but if u go to the link, they look like total guai kia(s).


#1 山田孝之 Yamada Takayuki
#2 高岡蒼甫 Takaoka Sousuke

#1 acted as a geek/nerd and a man who kept crying and now a gangster. shd watch him in densha otoko(movie) and 在世界中心呼唤爱(movie).

ok tts all for today. i think i shd go bathe and slp. hahaha! SUPER TIRED! its bad to do proj at 8am. lol.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIU DIU!

part I
courage came for me the other night. i feel better now. not so much of cognitive dissonance. lol. im easily pissed AGAIN these days. pmessy time again. obviously if i know the answer or if the answer was obvious enough, i WOULDNT ask. ive got brains you know. partly i was worried, what if you didnt make it, there always has to be plan b. i am so E-VEIL~ and whats with this jerk hur. loser! as a friend always says, piss off and f--- some gays. hahaha i think he/she knows who he/she is.

part II
you acted like a loser before and now you act like a loser again. ok 2nd try, you did try a little harder. i think i'm a loser too but not as bad as you.

life is sometimes soo depressing. went for a talk on clinical psychology the other day. its quite interesting but dr cecilia esau basically focused more on the course of study so some ppl found it boring. but i tot the field itself was interesting. and shes doing cultural psych too. omg! wait till i get my hands on the japanese boys. HAHAHAHA! but then again, i cant even imagine myself doing masters/phd. its like, how the hell can someone like me do a thesis. but i say NO to research. crap, i'll really just spend my entire life and turn out with no results. hahaha. OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER. as you can see, i haven been studying much so i jus keep repeating the same illnesses. i want the JAL scholarship! may my path towards rich-dom be smooth sailing. time to throw cash into people's faces. ok bad attitude. DITCH.

more good stuff.
akanishi jin's voice is really nice and im facing more and more competition. from both sides of the gender. WAHAHA! my latest fav song, not by jin sadly. but it makes me happy =] telling bro abt my pissed-off story now. feeling bit pissed off again. 2 presentations coming up! someone save me. and nobody wants to reply my 203 email i am so sad! and my hotmail refuses to let me attach files i am feeling tmd abt it. and my -- is pissing me off too! must abstain from ---- and stop all this rubbish. i think ive said about everyth i want to say.

hw111








i think i look funny in the first one but haha funny. that's esther, hoang, annie and jocelyn for you. joy went off slacking. haha.

nobody from my family will read this but still
爸爸，生日快乐！
stay healthy and funny and happy. and rich. heh.

hes damn cute, he asked to wait for bro to be back to cut cake cos he want him to play happy bday song on his trumbone or trumpet or wateva. i tink i spelt the instruments wrongly haha.

got tuition later. rahhhh. now im rethinking about my fees but its quite bad to quit right. damn. that day they treated me to kimbap. did i say tt? its nice, mak-shiit-ta. mental block. dont know what to do now. ok maybe i'll finish teaching this year or till june.

i tore this page off a old notebk cos i wanted to use it for jap. poor thing but theres some nice quotes i got off a bk so ive decided to type them here.

《你转身，我下楼》敷米浆 著

我一直认为我不固执，直到你离开我而我还爱你的那一天。

踩着回忆的脚印，一步步地走向你
直到幸福的足迹逐渐模糊

这里的天空很冷，有时候，还冷得吓人。尤其是思念的时候

一天内不断地出现她的声音代表着什么？我很想知道。

不知道现在的你，能不能偿到，我思念的味道。

在下一滴眼泪掉落之前，我会出现在你身边。

i love the first and last line. but i cant rmb the story alr. HAHAHA SO SAD! i know its abt this guy missing a girl n he keeps smoking. in btwn he prob liked other girls/took them as substitutes. not sure abt tt. haha.

i hate doing/reading reports. soo wordy! yucks! we should watch videos instead! i just watched CTKT's Hokkaido episode. HILARIOUS. akanishi! and i hate parties, they make me fat. worse is twice in a wk n worst is u end up being used to eating so much. crap its been 2 days alr. and the weather is SERIOUSLY odd. its either sg starts to snow or we'll all just die. maybe the earth will start to burn one day. let me burn in akanishi's embrace! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA. ON FAI-YAR~ hw is seriously funny. with the dead bird and knock knees. but i hate the project! i hate projects!

i am gg to be VERY busy with tuition. ysd they made me kimbap, kind of like korean sushi. its nice. and theres this soy bean paste soup, sth like miso. happy~ but there'll be tuition thrice a wk when shes holidaying. and our bday is jus 1 day diff. how coincidental right. so to all my dear friends, i REPEAT[so u can just stop asking me] I HAVE A 5-DAY WK THIS SEMESTER and every tues, thurs night i am working. so is saturday morning[but no we dun usually go out in e morning so its ok] but for the 2 weeks after good friday, mon, wed, thurs, fri nights are FULLY BOOKED. SO STOP ASKING BEFORE I PUT U ON FAI-YAR! it is freaking irritating. simple things also cannot remember.

it keeps raining, destroys all my workout regimes. today we ate pizza, even worse. and the most depressing thing is, i was so tired
(from laughing and perpetual lack of sleep.
DO YOU KNOW, i haven actually gone to bed before 12am ever since uni started? prob except 1 or 2 days when i kanna knocked out TOTALLY)
but i felt bad for not visiting some people so i decided to send them an e-mail. it was kind of rubbish but i dun tink deyre damn interested in my every little details so i tot i'll make it stupid and light-hearted. first reply was an out of office automated msg. totally no effect. second instand reply(NOTE i sent out the email at 11+pm) was XX, how come we never install anti spam software?
oh gosh. i think hes joking and i do hope hes joking. like SERIOUSLY. because he just tore my heart into a million pieces. i feel stupid. bahhh. but i guess i'd feel even more guilty and dissonant and bad for not contacting them.
its ok. i can take this. HE IS JUST JOKING. tomorrow i'll receive nice replies. but i wont have time to check!

my shift's increased to TWO, 12-2 then 5-9.30. may everything run smoothly. trying to do hw reflections now. theres barely anyth to say. hw is getting bad but im glad i changed class at the very least.

when you feel bad and emo, you can
i) listen to emo songs. get it over and done with. but risk getting more emo
ii) talk to a friend. gets comforted/vents or risk getting pissed.
worse is to actually feel like you can depend on someone and fall for that person. this is not happening to me but i just happened to think about how some ppl fall for each other. but i rather like someone because i'll think about you even when im at my happiest, not when i need someone to be there for me. kind of weird since a soulmate is suppose to help you through difficult times right? HAHAHA. am i making sense at all?

i made a new friend on monday/today! LOL. and i talked to a ah ma on my way home after tuition ysd. and i gave extra half an hr tuition AGAIN. im becoming nice, arent i? nice and sociable.

p.s. reading my recent posts, i feel like a total bitch.

TALK OF THE DAY
cartoon. KAT-TUN! CARTON! says:
why sg so pathetic
clarence says:
lol cos sg ma
clarence says:
those things tt can make big money they wil do damn well. lyk casino, youth olympcis, ferris wheel, F1
cartoon. KAT-TUN! CARTON! says:
yah romance doesnt make money apparently
cartoon. KAT-TUN! CARTON! says:
make babies only
cartoon. KAT-TUN! CARTON! says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHA


this is insane n im gg to sound like im seriously obsessed...
but i did dream of akanishi just a few days back! lol. hes in his teenage days[yah the cuter version] with the other boys and they were singing a japanese er ge
i wanted to learn so i got them to teach me lol. funny right! but i could actually hear him singing a song ive never heard of in my dream. i think my brain is really way too active. the other time, it composed a concert which eventually led to the song i set for my alarm and they matched perfectly. my brain needs some rest. maybe i shd do pseudo-psych. anw im really evil today so bahh... dun believe whatever i said.

見てる -- The Leap Years
its a very nice story, i cried like shit. i dont even know who i was relating it to, like who was on my mind[there were too many hahaha] but i jus kept crying, a few scenes in between and towards the end, my tears were streaming till my legs. ITS THAT BAD. ok kidding =p some of the quotes inside are nice too. meaningful =] but i tot the filming was quite bad. Mr 715 is a bad choice, showing ERP is just as bad, the worst was OCBC sign. crap. Ananda Everingham makes his appearance again! this time hes hotter because there isnt a ghost riding his back. heh. but guys with long hair are really bad. they look like... women? trans? whichever. but nice smiles are +++. but smile appropriately. else you'll just look like an idiot. and when you dont have the nice smile, you look like a pervert. hey, im a poet too! hahaha. i love the scene he almost got banged by a few cars just to stand in the middle of the road, OK! sweet~ the scene he threw the love letters off the building[and came the distracting disgusting OCBC sign. did they sponsor that much?] the letter he wrote for her. the little things that hinted to her that hes the wind. when he called her brave. wong li lin's pretty, i still remember her acting along james lye, sth 999? and venetta lopez is totally cool in the show. haha. you remember when i found out i was gay? you told me, you dont need anyone's approval to love someone. so why bother what other ppl think?
apparently, i missed this one[below] during my toilet break
a person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it -Jean de la Fontaine-
oh the word most commonly used in love letters is 'miss' not 'love' and he knew what it meant. oooh~
hmm dwarf's outing, jus w/o peix n lingu.

あの人 -- so after much crying, we were on our way to AH-KUN. guess who we saw? Please text your answer in the following format to 91497318 by 8th march midnight. yah very funny.
lijia is always so brave. i applaude u. WE HAVEN DONE TT IN YEARS, HAVE WE?!
ah-kun's one slice butter is so sinful gosh. but its nice. the pt we pay so much for 2 pieces of stupid toasted bread is not because of the brand, but because we dont have the courage to slam that much butter into our bread at home. as hp203 says, out of sight, out of mind its even better when you're not the one doing it.

my eyes are tired from crying, and looking at somebody. HAHA NO IM KIDDING! seriously. its jus tired from lack of sleep and tearing from laughing in 202 and crying in e cinema. another sad movie soon, girls? then im flying over to japan. HAHA!

I AM SO DEAD

anw my laptop's been dying, on and off. the screen blacks out thou u can see the windows slightly but its really straining on the eyes. am contemplating a new laptop or desktop. desktop will be a lot cheaper but laptop can bring to sch. but im not suppose to bring to sch rite? HAHAHA i duno but laptop will save ALOT OF SPACE! then bro is suggesting the... hmm ok i forgot the brand, hard disk. mini one. and top up a LCD. rahhhh very irritating, i better decide soon. is IT fair over?

私は日本語が大好き。でも、授業は...
hey my vocab and grammar is really bad. HAHAHAHA. but stimes it feels irritating and boring cos u jus keep repeating and revising. theres ppl who're kind and they constantly try to help out with translating and theres ppl who're so loud, they lead the class to say the wrong thing and cont being loud. stimes i do tt but cos nobody wans to ans, everyone else is like hesistating n thinking abt the correct ans and that includes kind ppl. so it gets irritating and i decide to make a fool out of myself and then after tt i shut up if im wrong. that is so rare cos i hate to feel pai seh.[im sry but i do make a lot of noise too] but stimes its even worse to be sitting there and experience that stupidity's awkwardness. do my words sound wrong? but sounds cheem right. tts how mr fang's lyrics go. it all looks cheemology and everyone goes woo and ahh. yes, including me but stimes you think abt it, nouns SHDNT be used as verbs[or vice-versa] but apparently tts e new trend and everyone's music is shifting towards 'zhong guo feng'. its seems impressive but everyth shd come in moderation[funny tts coming from me, esp when u see the way i eat certain food lol]. one gd eg, wth is there gg to be a korean version of HYD when theres alr the taiwan and japanese version? i rmb years back when 'xiao yan zi' was popular and this smart dude wrote on i-weekly. first plate of xiao yan zi was oh-so-new and attractive. 2nd plate of xiao yan zi still tastes good. third plate of xiao yan zi, u're sick of it alr. tts why stimes trilogies dun work. unless u have a hot cast such tt shallow fans[like me] will still follow and love the series even if its not good. but i tink lotr n pirates were gd. ok maybe the 3rd wasnt as nice but it was still funny, i love the way jack sparrow had those multiple eyes drawn. and tt huge stick stuck to his back tt became an enormous fruit kebab, im sure there was a papaya. am i making any sense here? and why is there a hollywood version of THE EYE? whats their problem? ang mohs are no gd at horror movies so maybe dey shd stop adapting asian ones! theres gg to be street-fighter hollywood version soon. TIAN AH. its suppose to haf edison inside. i mean according to the report like months ago. i cant imagine it, its so weird. the hong kong one was not bad though. a few of my fav artistes inside. childhood~

hey i actually have a job in mind other than being a slacker sitting in my nice office, prob with a nice black couch, collecting rich ppl's money. a consultant working with johnny's jimusho. i need to counsel those guys and stop their sissy actions. why are they made to do that? and it seems like it becomes a habit eventually. BAD BAD BAD.

ok i tink i have a quiz in 8 hours' time so i better start studying. pls refer to my first sentence.