watched V for Vendetta wif mf. pretty good, i lyk e plot n e director's way of filming. certain scenes =] but itz very lit n quite cheem. i tink V is damn cool when he took those bullets n killed e rest. hai tink my memory's getting worse, i cant rmb the characters' names. my gawd, am i getting stupider? anw e story ended quite sadly thou e explosion part was so grand.

we ate hans n found lots more fantastic food. but didnt eat lah, so sad. i tink i'm having mental block right now. duno wat i wan to say.

while i needed someone to speak up for me, you insisted that i stop those tears in order to avoid the embarrasement you had to face.
i sweared to myself subconsciously,
i hate you.
and when i lost my happiness, i decided that you shant keep yours either.

aiyo i juz read fei jie's blog. she sound so sad. but i agree wif sth she said, stimes u'll feel so troubled but u dun exactly noe watz causing it. itz juz a whole load of things to tink abt n u juz cant sort them out.

today I AM BLOODY SLEEPY! lethargic too. today's sparring left me wif lots of or-che(s) n my left foot is really painful now. i can hardly bend it so i haf to limp. anw shall be out wif mf tml. i hope i dun vomit or sth after dinner wif her. ha kidding. but i'm so excited!! recently ive been spending alot, i tink i juz spent $100+ away. gosh. muz start saving $$$. someone's hair is totally hilarious. actually 2. i'm feeling fortunate for wat i haf.

herez a poem tt i lyk alot. heard it frm e korean show winter sonata n yes ive posted this bac in the diary-sth-.com place.

The Flight by Sarah Teasdale

Look back with longing eyes and know that I will follow,
Lift me up in your love as a light wind lifts a swallow,
Let our flight be far in sun or windy rain--
But what if I heard my first love calling me again?

Hold me on your heart as the brave sea holds the foam,
Take me far away to the hills that hide your home;
Peace shall thatch the roof and love shall latch the door-

But what if I heard my first love calling me once more?

why is it that i still think of you?

today is real exhausting. i went to swim on my own[n met this bunch of china pervs. gawd. i tanner than them lah!] next i bought bread at e bakery opp. itz not really impt but read on. i took a nice walk frm e pool to mocha's bus stop. some --FANG3 place, abt 4 bus stops away! juz to buy MORE bread. i prefer those neighbourhood bakery. itz cheaper nicer n bigger. haha. but of coz e st leavens in taka is an exception. not exactly cheap thou. i agree wif e horoscope on today's newspaper. virgo(s) are advised to take some private time off to relax e mind n emotions. tt i agree.

evening was at AH YAN's hse. lol bbq, ddr n mahjong! so fun!! me n zing challenged e damn difficult paranoia till mad. but finally we cleared. damn pro! haha. ang came soo late! den we surprised her, saying tt therez a blackout den we sang her bday song. heh.

right now i'm feeling bloody hot. lyk burning eh. feeling very slpy now. been slpy since i swam. almost drowned coz i almost fell aslp swimming. haha. how stupid. n i ran home frm e bus stop coz it looked so dark. hum ji hahaha. wah tml is stay-at-home day. shall haf a good rest.

i survived. results will be bad but i cant be bothered. wah today last paper but... NOBODY GO OUT WIF ME! so sad. so i came home and i went jogging. saw this girl. itz bit weird, everytime i'll see her walking. but the moment she sees me, she starts to run. i'm very motivational?

this is really funny i agree with it.

been listening to radio everyday but i heard this really funny song all things bright and beautiful juz found the lyrics. didnt noe itz a christian song cum danish folk song. lol, the version i heard was so hongkee. here goes

All things bright and beautiful,
All creatures great and small,
All things wise and wonderful,
The Lord God made them all.

Each little flower that opens,
Each little bird that sings,
He made their glowing petals,
He made their tiny wings.

All things bright and beautiful,
All creatures great and small,
All things wise and wonderful,
The Lord God made them all.

The purple-headed mountains,
The river running by,
The sunset and the morning
That brightens up the sky.

All things bright and beautiful,
All creatures great and small,
All things wise and wonderful,
The Lord God made them all.

The cold wind in the winter,
The pleasant summer sun,
The ripe fruits in the garden,
God made them every one.

All things bright and beautiful,
All creatures great and small,
All things wise and wonderful,
The Lord God made them all.

God gave us eyes to see them,
And lips that we might tell
How great is God Almighty,
Who has made all things well.

All things bright and beautiful,
All creatures great and small,
All things wise and wonderful,
The Lord God made them all.


Words based on Genesis 1:31 by Cecil Frances Alexander (1818-1895)

yes very long. wah 2 papers left. yay. oh yah, i totally hate listening to lin zhi xuan. i use to lyk his songs back in the "you ke ling lin" days but now... i duno, his songs sound so gay n restless. i tink coz e songs are so relaxing and his voice is so soothing n e result is juz... yeeee. sad case, hez e only reason i'll turn off the radio. i duno why i'm criticising him lol.

wasted my morning seeing enuf nerds n gays to last my lifetime.

i wun do well for blocks this time. as in e results will be worse than promos. anyone got any good ideas for killing ants? coz i see ants crawling into my room, thru my wardrobe or behind my table n i duno where dey go!! the thing is i dun eat in my rm. SO WHY THEY COME TO MY ROOM FOR?! i juz hope there isnt a dead lizard or cockroach behind my cupboards. yuck~ itz not a trail of ants thou, dun worry. but really irritating.

motivations to survive this ordeal :
- outing wif chi a!
- sat to celebrate *ahem ahem* bday.
- stayover?!
- NEXT MONDAY GOT NO SCHOOL FOR ME! I HATE HCI! kidding.
- only 4 days of sch next wk, haha!
- bakerzinn!! haha mavis will haf to treat if she doesnt pass chem. lol. i'll bring xian along to stress u.
- exile! wahaha, the biggest burger on earth.
- volunteering for another sports event. can earn 30bucks! no, i'm not running.

hmmm so instead of me toking cock here, maybe i shd put more effort in my studies n get straight As + A1 for GP. wahahha. n den i shd do some community service to make myself outstanding. being irritating, ignore.

bro juz gave me this doraemon alarm clock n he recorded his voice inside, saying "QI CHUANG LE!!!" i heard him n mum screaming outside juz now. seems to haf a lot of fun, tinking tt will wake me up. hahaha. maybe i shd go for a jog later to de-stress a bit. i tink i'm going crazy.

what has fate in store for us?


QUIZTime of starting this? 3:35pm
2. Were you named after anyone? half of it maybe. haha.
3. Do you wish on stars? yah i tried once in e morning. n fu lao really didnt come. =]
4. When did you last cry? this morning in e audi, i was yawning.
5. What is your favourite meat? FISH! but i dun lyk fish leong.
6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf? dun haf lah.
7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? of coz lah, i'm so frenly. come on man!
9. How do you release anger? i dun wan to tell u.
10.Where is your second home? godma/godsis hse.
11. Do you trust others easily? yesh yesh. totally gullible.
12. What was your favourite toy as a child? all e cooking stuff! potential chef.
13. What subject in school do you think is totally useless? nthz totally useless lah.
14. Do you use sarcasm a lot? depends on the feeeeel
15.Have you ever been in a mosh pit? vot's zat?
16. What do you look for in a guy/girl? waha! humour? some ppl juz make u very bu shuang for no reason.
17. Would you bungee jump? let me hug legolas.
18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no. i untie it when i wear it back.
19. What's your favourite ice cream flavour? anyth wif choc, not too sweet thou.
20. what is your favourite colour? maybe black.
21. What is your least favourite thing? my appetite
22. Are you a daredevil? depends.
23. What do you miss most right now? life back then.
24. What are you listening to right now? w-inds.
25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? white
26. what's the weather like now? lan tian bai yun.
27. Last person you talked to on the phone? mum?
28. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? e face lah!
30. How are you today? DAMN XIAN!
31. Favourite drink? water.
32. Favourite alcoholic drink? hmm... only tried hooch before. not bad.
33. Natural hair colour? black
34. Eye colour? brown
35. Wear contacts? sometimes
36. Siblings? 1.
37. Favourite month? september
38. Favourite food? italian, jap... sandwich, bread, cakes, pastries, cookies... all the fattening stuff yes.
39. Last movie you watched? DUN TOK ABT IT!
40. Favourite day of the year? no idea.
41. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out? haha.
42. Scary movies or happy endings? depends on my mood eh.
43. Summer or winter? autumn.
44. Hugs or kisses? hugs
45.Do you want your friends to write back? lol.
46. Who is most likely to respond? nobody.
47. Who is least likely to respond? xiao ah!
48. What book/magazine are you reading? i forgot the title.
49. What's on your mouse pad? there isnt a mouse pad here.
50. What did you watch on TV last night? oh... DISCOVERY TRAVEL N LIVING!
51 Favourite Smell? bread.
52 do you regret ever breaking up with someone? get me someone to break up wif.
53. Time of finishing? 3:48pm

sum of the wk = 7 days. tok cock. anw, feeling really good after a jog. woo~ i tink i'm getting fit, letz all await e arrival of muscle ting. haha. bit cranky. hmmm been watching tv since noon. gosh. one thing... having watched THE FORGOTTEN on hbo, i realise why i didnt catch it in the cinemas back then. coz someone[i tink is jin] told me the storyline wasnt very good. n yes it wasnt very good. WHY IS IT ALIENS? it'll be more interesting if humans can do all these stuff but tt'll be ultra scary too.

'steamed' a 'sponge' cake last wkend wif mum. was not bad, typical taste of ji dan gao. i'm not being crude. but itz kind of saturated at the bottom too, lyk sin yee's mum's cake. but i tink hers was more sponge. mine was so chinese type of cake taste. so ovens are invented by westerners. hmmm, no sense. shall keep hoping for an oven. but den again, i may not be a good pastry chef! today i made potato gratin for dinner. juz a small portion but not salty enuf. bleh, i forgot to add e tuna. maybe i'll try again tml. I LOVE CHEESE! one day i'll make tiramisu n cheesecake. nonbake ones =]

block test die. i'm finishing physics but itz supposedly going to be harder than chem n i haven touched chem cept kinetics which is j1 topic. hallelujah. hmmm, cant wait to get w-inds. new album! been listening to e songs, really nice. better than e previous one thou there are songs tt i get addicted to too. but there are songs tt i skip all the time too.

e-o. back by popular demand. haha.
anyways, ysd e paper one was disastrous mans. last 2 paras incompleted. aiyos. i duno why i toking this way haha. paper two seemed better. hmm nvm, i'm prepared to fail or get a lousy pass.

today quite fun eh, went ntu n nus open hse. we walked arnd wif loads of brochures, papers n ugly bags. then we visited the DESIGN fac. omg, therez this senior who is so derrick-alyk. quite cute too =]]] went genki for buffet again. i'm hopeless. reaching 70 soon. i wan to die. target was 45. i'm giving myself... 8 mths. n i haven study!! i tink i shd go slp n start everyth proper tml. JIA YOU PPLS! haha. anw nice quote frm a nice show. i lyk the director's way of filming too.

forgiveness is between them and God. My job is to arrange the meeting - Greasy

RANDOM
1. What time do you get up? depends.
2. If you could eat lunch with one person, who would it be? nic.
3. Gold or silver? Silver!
4. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? perhaps... perhaps. love. oh maybe it was king KONG.
5. What is your favorite TV show? jamie oliver series n this show on discovery where ppl go to each others hse n play host tt competition one.
6. What do you have for breakfast? BIG BREAKFAST or cornflakes.
7. Who would you hate to be stuck in a room with? to respect tt person, i shall not disclose his/her name. GUESS!
8. What/who inspires you? disciplined/determind ppl
9. What is your middle name? YAN
10. Beach, City or Country? beach when i'm 45kg. city when i haf e money. watz country?
11. Favorite ice cream/frozen dessert? WAH DAMN A LOT! i can write a thesis on tt.
12. Butter, plain or salted popcorn? SWEET ONES
13. Favorite color? black, green, purple, white for e moment.
14. What kind of car do you drive? GTA.
15. Favorite sandwich? hmm... whole-meal bread + egg wif yolk not totally cooked but not too raw + cheese n maybe ham. no butter.
16. What characteristic in a person do you despise? hypocrites, liars, posers[unless dey look bloody drooling-attractive], sarcastic ppl who are not funny.
17. Favorite flower? hmm... lilies?
18. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? JAPAN! EGYPT! but for now, bangkok n taiwan's juz fine.
19. What color is your bathroom? pale yellow turning disgusting green coz of those... algae? wateva tt grows lah.
20. Favorite brand of clothing? dun go for brands but i lyk samuel n kevin =]
21. Where would you retire to? sg's fine.
22. Favorite day of the week? thursday! i end early n therez isnt cca waiting.
23. Where were you born? sg's fine.
24. Favorite sport to watch? i dun watch sports. ballophobia. haha!
25. What fabric detergent do you use? ask my mum.
27. Coke or Pepsi? none.
28. Are you a morning person or a night owl? depends. mostly night.
29. What is your shoe size? 6-8. weird hor.
30. Do you have any pets? xiao xian? hahaha! emily.
31. Where is the last place you traveled to for a vacation? TAIWAN. great place.

da jia hao. ysd tkd left me wif muscle aches. anw, we were doing this 360° kick but i cldnt do it properly. so i got freaking pissed wif myself. den i ended up sitting on e floor crying and laughing. ha, it wasnt a sad cry but juz.. i duno. the tears juz flow. scared e hell out of yining, grace n meifang. sorry haha. guess i was juz stressed out seeing e seniors getting their results. coz i fear mine. at least till now, i haf no guts to take e paper. i noe i wun do well. itz weird, back in sec sch, i was scared but itz different. hmmm... yah freaking 360° kick. dinner was another fun thing. mf insisted i shd eat. so i got caesar salad[i luv tt load of cheese dey put in it] n den i saw this scandalous pair. wan tian's bro. den when we left e restaurant... hahaha. another. ok main thing is at night i had slight stomach discomfort AGAIN. so is it mf or i cant eat cheese? lol i'm kidding my darling.

oh anw congrats to all who're satisfied wif their results. =]] A LVLS IS OVER. pw come out soon pls. ponned sch today coz got half day i barely haf lessons. heh i used e stomachache as an excuse. but went to ps to meet e class in e afternoon. played zhong ji mi ma in pizza hut. i tio e second one lah! den i had to go up to this sa girls n ask if i can haf a sip of their pepsi. THNX LOADS.[if u eva read this. really nice of u. i dun haf any weird diseases. dun worry.]walked arnd shopping for presents den headed home. oh my optician is very nice, gave me a total of 3 free trial pairs of lenses. haha, zhuan dao. happy birthday tigger! hmm, very unproductive day. i did 4 Qs for li jie wen da. tmd. shall try to catch up on chem tutorials. =]]

i dun wan to come back crying.