i told myself i better win sth today. THEN I SCREW UP THE TEAM POMSEII!! pattern 3 was quite ok i think. but my bloody side kick for pattern 4 was totally bad. i stumbled n i didnt anyth else properly after tt. crap. i suck.

congrats to all those who won. really really sry to ninja, lagger n hui fen. u guys put in so much effort n i didnt kick properly n still stumble n still panic n still neva cont properly. if i didnt do tt terrible blunder n subsequent ones, we cld haf gotten into top 4. *bows* poor tracie was disappointed too. dey didnt let her take part at all. long story. it's my time to cry.

i'm suffering frm the ah gong's inoeisuck period syndrome.
i wish tml when i wake up, its miraculously 2 jan 2005.

this is the time when i'm so glad i haf a bro. cant imagine it if i'm e only child. haha, currently i'm hiding in his rm right now. shall go n do my work soon.
money is a terrible thing.

gosh, there's trng on mon, tues, wed n fri. comp is on sat. haf i mentioned this before? rather senile today. stupid ah gongs.[yiyou, this is not u] i duno why i feel so blur n lost today. slave called me quite loudly in e canteen when i was juz abt 70cm in front of him. who noes i juz walked pass w/o lookin at him. I HEARD leh but i juz didnt react haha. cocks.
during maths, M found this net thing to prevent e flowers frm blooming. she took it n started tickling me n zee. grrrr. so we attacked her back. hahahaha. n poor xian was sitting behind wif no one who's bothered bt him. then zee n i kept acting cute to torture M. lol.
last wk we did sth even stupider. exchange bags. den xiaoxian took mine! he look so gay coz itz so small on him n e colour is lyk baby blue. den dey shortened e straps n he buttoned his first button n tuck in his shirt. damn funny!!! e foto's in my fone. shall upload someday ahha.
last wk of sch, yay! but will be missing out lotsa fun.

ananda everingham an impt name. he looks a bit lyk orlando bloom n her world claims tt hez got a hot bode. i'm not sure bt tt yet, i'll find out. =]

lucks to all hc tkd teams n individuals. haha. i dun tink i'll haf e li qi to come n blog anymore this wk. busy busy! cant wait to catch da vinci n Xmen3

emotional eating.
i cant figure out which emotion tt is.

YAY today all J2s went down to support bball. heh our sch won. first time i so happy for e sch lah. heehee. bit nostalgic, i miss e days e choir gers go support nh bball. the supporters cant even fill a bus but still fond memories. heehee. LINGLING!!! meeting someone tml? ha.

anw yea, e match was exciting. i cheer n scream till i haf a sexy voice now. i diu rong kang totally gua mu xiang kan. i'm so sry for luffing at him being fat. aj had this larger king kong btw. ok i'm lyk none the better. + a few others are very gd too. shant elaborate, only me n ang will noe. heehee. SO SWAI~~~ saw my ** swai ge too. lol. today is a gd day man. dinner was lyk a feast. maybe i'm still tinking bt phy spa. i screw it up lah damn it. CRAP. to tink i got e ans a long time ago.

yes yes, tkd comp is coming soon!!! next sat! quite scared, our team pomseii[sounds cool hur] not very well prepared yet. hope we can win sth. my tolerance n endurance lvl is rising. having watched the team sports games, i so envy e ppl. i wish i was in one. touch rug? hai~ i want to restart jc life. i promise i'll study, be committed to my cca n not eat so much. haha. i'll take better care of myself. but if tt ever happens, i dun tink i want to be in hc. n if tt happens, i'll miss my frens. u cant haf both isnt it?

i hate myself.

i've been feeling freaking pissed wif myself for e past few days. mixture of troubled, confused, lost... and very pissed. basically becoz i haf a lot of things to do this wkend n e schedule's in a mess. skipped gg to godsis' hse n e camp briefing. worst thing was i intended to read e human rights articles n do all my corrections BUT I DIDNT! merely finished 4 pages of human rights. BLOODY HELL! i duno watz wrong wif me. i'm having proper slp routine, average 6-8 hrs. thou i tink i can do better wif 10. maybe itz my eating habits. but i'm seriously getting dumber. i cant focus tt well, dun absorb tt well n my comprehension skills for anyth in eng juz seemed to be deteriorating... exponentially. my gawd. lyk i dun understand ms chua n all other lecturers n anyth on paper. FREAKING STUPID! i shall attempt to eat more fish. omega-3 n 6.

thurs sports day was quite boring. bleh... zing n m ran. m's team's 2nd runner bloody fast. duno how to spell her name. but so impressive. i haven seen a girl run so fast. yiyou, wan tian, xian n i went to watch MI3. not bad, maggie Q is hot. there was this scene when dey were in e plane n tom cruise was threatening this guy[forgot his name, see how bad my memory is] n e screen kept jerking. maybe dey were attempting to make the scene more real. good try but i felt lyk i was shaking too.

sat noon met up wif exile. tried MAD JACK. average. went over to island creamery for reversO. very nice!! n lots of pocky sticks haha. e last time had fresh banana wif mf n yining. omg, nice at e start but really yuck when u reach e bottom of e tub. anw we took some fotos, pasted one there n smuggled one home. heehee. went over to orchard n i stayed in borders alone for lyk 1+ hr. bought a bk =] met chen on e way to ps but we headed twds far east to get her mum a present. by den, our legs sooo suan lor. went over to glass hse for fish&co!!! my fav!!! shared seafood platter for 2 wif chippy =]] damn nice la e food. sexy wee chern sat opp us n kept eating. he can compete wif me for DA WEI WANG. there was 2 blackouts n we decided to take e chance n sing dk a song. as if we planned it. haha! after tt there was eating cake comp. dey so evil, everyone sabo me go. i lost to limyuan anw. e 6d ppl all xiao one, they can stuff e cake so quickly. n weeleng pushed my head into tt lump of cake. i duno why... went over to fort canning. didnt do much den few of us went home le. but overall e day quite fun. haha.

today's MOTHER'S DAY! went out to buy cake wif bro at 6. came home only at 9 haha. we went all e way to imm la. lyk excursion. lol... bought loads of stuff, ate loads of stuff.
conclusion : FATS ATTACK!
better start jogging routine again. bleh... if i wasnt so skinny back then i wldnt even tink i'm fat now. not my fault. itz mental.

KABOOM!!!! here's what in for me this wkend.
sat : trng n briefing clash. exile. jts n family dinner clash. stayover at godsis'
read up ALL the gp stuff,
memo ba lu xi
study organic chem + poly for holy's test on tues
study for phy spa skill a.

feeling so #%(^*!&^@.
trng on tues, me bloody tired. i missed meifang & yining totally. bleh. tolerance is the key.

Q : is a-student's-better-understanding-for-a-subject the child of remedials?
u may use experiences to tackle this question.

schools haf executed the remedial system in hope to help students who are weaker academically. yet in the session i had on wed, there was serious communication breakdown and uneasiness. thus, i feel that remedial doesnt necessarily give birth to better understanding in a subject.

pt 1 : during a remedial, both parties may not haf found a common way in executing ideas and putting them into place. she didnt realise she was so uber cheem in supersonic mode n i wasnt concentrating enuf. both parties' lack of accommodation resulted in student not having a better understanding.

pt 2 : questionably, if students are not allowed to speak out and play a part in the process of tuitioning, wldnt they most probably obtain different and very possibly, wrong ideas? she refuses to give me a chance to clarify matters. therefore i was unsure of what have i learnt and it cld bt possibly contradicting and irrelevant again when phrased in my own way. wrong information is not tantamount to better understanding.

pt 3 : besides the idea of remedials, lessons are generally the main pipeline[guan3 dao4] in having a better understanding. however my personal experience is chopped off due to supersonic mode n me not focusing enuf again. hence, we see tt better understanding can be brought abt thru other methods.

pt 4 : we know that teachers shd not take all e blame. they are e givers n we are e takers. the takers will therefore haf to put in effort to work for a better grade. my personal case, however, is a failure as i did not read thru e notes n articles on my part n failed to complete my corrections. thus, remedial was ptless as i failed to fully understand wat she was trying to explain.

counter argument : some ppl say tt i can n shd try using things lyk "may i clarify tt pt?" the next time. they haf a pt n i see the way dey phrase their question politely n effectively. however, she doesn't allow me to interrupt her n when i do try to explain things in my own words, she cuts me off. thus, i see the entire session as being useless n a waste of time.

hence, it is evident tt remedials haf to be conducted effectively to give better understanding. yet frm the wed experience, i see tt my lousy n ineffective expression and sentence structure + phrasing is the most crucial problem in my studies. it has led to misunderstandings and miscommunication wif other ppl. however, the effect is not shallow as it has caused great damage in my essays n subsequently a demerit pt in wanting to score in other areas as well.

score's good? i see my thesis statement, a conclusion wif depth n topic sentences wif apt examples. thou not very detailed n elaborated due to lack of time... plus there's a personal voice BONUS *ding ding* so shez not tt bad but i juz feel lyk writing sth =]
if u r a true fren n u noe wat i'm talking abt, dun tell others abt it. juz keep wateva u-assumed to urself. thnx. they're fat anw. HAHAHA!

sth small... i said we didnt go thru argumentatives in sec sch coz mdm sia decided to focus on narratives. she simply commented tt it was to help us pass. i got an A1 my dear, frm a C6. it wasnt juz to help us PASS. BLEH! i suddenly haf a craving for my all-time fav waffle. maybe i shd take a nice walk n go get it later on. back to starting-all-over-for-dear-gp.

i totally love ysd's ct session. verve enharmonics came over and sang us nice songs in acapella. the first song wasnt tt great, e one of our mass dance totally pissed me off[coz dey kept repeating one particular line] but e rest, WOOTS! my fav was their second song - in the still of the night. if a guy sing me tt, i'll fall in love. + he dun look too pathetic. HAHAHA! evil~~~ but really nice song.

sth is wrong wif me. i'm eating bloody lot again but the worse thing is my stomach's so bloated. i seriously look like i'm 4mths pregnant. you know i use to think itz ridiculous for those underage girls/singlemums to juz give birth w/o anyone knowing. now i totally understand why the ppl arnd them can be totally oblivious of their pregnancy. the stomach bloats up to the same size, whether there's a baby inside or not. bleh. self-control~ maybe i'll be the first person to die of overeating. hahaha! choi choi.

many ppl are sick these days. i'm still coughing and sneezing. boo~ weird thing is i dun feel as sick but i cough n sneeze more. phelm is on its way~ so i haf no idea if i'm recovering or getting worse. haha. maybe i'm use to it liao. hope i can run 2.4 on wed. else i'll let it drag till after hols n pretend itz over.

lyrics to In The Still Of The Night

In the still of the night
I held you, held you tight
'Cause I love, love you so
Promise I'll never let you go
In the still of the night X2
I remember (I remember) that night in May
The stars (the stars) were bright above
I'll hope and I'll pray
To keep your precious love
Well before the light
Hold me again
With all of your might
In the still of the night X2
So before the light
Hold me again with all of your might
In the still of the night X3

so many ppl sick these days! anw, i skipped 2.4 today + chem lab + lao wang's stupid chi lesson + tkd. haha. ah lim gave me e feeling tt he tinks i'm cheating on him. nvm. sounds wrong anw. went out wif jin on monday! e day was really hot, 2 of us sweating juz by walking to mrt station. den we headed down to bugis. so funny, barely walked for 10mins n we decided we shd eat first. DIE AH BELLY, our bellies will grow bigger. den walked umpteen times up n down e bugis street, so confusing. bought myself a shirt[anw it doesnt fit wth. freaking small lah. more lyk kids size. dun say i'm fat!] arnd evening it started raining. stupid weather. then we went orchard. EAT AGAIN! had lotsa bread @ taka. weeee~ deardear, u better stop eating ice-cream btw. HAHAHAHA! then we shopped a bit more and went home. haha but it was really fun. tok bt lotsa stuff but no interesting ppl. at first we took some fotos in e train coz there werent much ppl but this guy sitting opp us kept staring. hahaha! so we stopped. we went into one neoprint shop n took fotos using her cam. lol so funny. n when we left we still complain bt e machine. *luffz* i hope e shop keeper isnt reading this.