nostalgia
fri was sort of last day of sch. no more lectures n tutorials alr. bleh...
we mass pon maths lec in e morning n took alot of fotos! but i tink the best are wif cl a, did all kinds of stupid things.
pian pian last day i muz go home myself den i tot of alot of things. i'm actually not very close to the class but dey are e only ones whom ive really played proper ball games wif. coz back den, there's always someone whom i noe will be criticising me[behind my back] if i miss e ball. -ballophobia- i was tinking i didnt try my best in this sch. i wasted e whole of first yr crying, trying to adapt, hating e sch, criticising every single thing... thou i tried socialising, BUT stimes at e end of e day, i juz feel sick of everyth n i stop trying. ended up tt i cld haf been better frens wif some ppl actually. but den again, back den, it was e best tt i cld do.

anw ppl, pls tune in to mr brown's podcast on a harmless podcadt. it is FREAKING funny!!!! omg... mai hum mai hum mai hum. i dun wan study alr, i go help mr brown out lah. i so lame. heehee.

aiming towards 4As.
HARHAR! wah lao bloody stressed lah, tmd. feel so screwed, lyk i lost all momentum to do work or study. xiannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. i muz...
sit up straight.
take care of my knee.
eat proper.
STUDY HARD. don't give up! [rhymes haha.]
practise song&dance in case i fail so i can venture into show biz.
else focus on yoga n por e yoga guru(s) so i can maybe become one of them someday.

if u believe wat i juz said u are quite dumb. so u better stop reading my blog n go STUDY!!!
haha i sound lyk some psycho. crazy, i'm toking to myself on my own blog. crap. maybe i go tag my own board later.

yes anw, ang n i did sth quite evil today. n today's yoga was freaking tough. n e female guru helped me ease e tension in my right knee a bit. she lyk physiotherapist. haha. fri is last session. only zing n me went today. hai...

anw congratulate me on keeping to my eating proper for 2 days. now i sound lyk some extreme diet-er. haha... oh but i feel a lot better eating proper meals n i ran to 6th ave today!!!

anw this entry is crap again. juz taking a break off my fav CARBO! yay, hope i wun be blogging anymore. COZ I KEEP COMING ONLINE N DO NTH!!! so bo liao!!! haven type my cca-cip records. sux man, my cca record. so bloody short n i pian pian sick on cross country so i got even lesser things to put inside. ahhhhhh... bloody mad n those ppl who somehow didnt let me go. idiots... BLEHHHHHHh. why cannot add 1st 3 mths stuff in nj? i so enthu there lor... cept for ponning e touch rug trngs haha. coz e seniors n coach a bit... *whistles* raindrops are falling on my head.

CIAO!

i am so horrible... today's menu[last time i hope]
+3 slices of bread
+jap food[1 bowl of fried pork cutlet rice]
+1 raisin oatmeal cookie
+1 chicken sandwich
+1 bowl of cold taohui
+1 fruit tart
+1 chicken curry puff
+1 fillet-o-fish
+6~7 chicken mcnuggets
+2 SMALL buns[not lyk it matters]
+1 pineapple
+1 FINAL pack of vege biscuits.

weeeeeee~~~ wat the hell is wrong wif my stomach? i tink it can wrap up e entire earth. or maybe juz swallow singapore. bleh... WHY WHY WHY. any psychologist or psychaitrist or nutritionist or wateva specialist reading this, pls tag. haha, give me some advice.

and yes i'll bring lesser money out in future. i mean starting from tml.

today is bloody hot day. i feel lyk i'm constantly heating up. yes yes e insulation. NO DUN FRET! we shall start jogging tml! start slow i tink, else my knee juz collapse n die. den i paralyse. den HAhahahahaha. kidding~ quite crazy recently. stressed. tts y i eat so much? haha but ive been doing tt since lyk... secondary 3 or 4? back den wasnt so bad, J1 was seriously lyk the major change in my life. yes yes study hard.

2 fav songs recently - best i ever had + fly me to the moon
saw sth shocking ysd. lalalala. nth impt.
anw, thnx to all those who tolerated my nonsense haha. yes... i shall go bathe n slp alr. sooo bloody tired.

prelims coming... time to be serious alr.

i'm NOT gg out anymore after today, unless of coz its to study. damn difficult but gd way to save money too. lalala... XIANNNNNN...

i duno who's tt weird person on my tag -- EMM. wan plastic bag shd ask frm yutian. hahaha! ok bad joke. muz stop luffing at others. else today's temple trip will be wasted.

anw i injured my knee quite badly. starting was e intensive tkd trng but wasnt TT BAD until... the ~ohm, shanti, nahamas, chataranga, warrior 1, down 'dog', up 'dog'~ now both my knees hurt! juz tt e right one is a little bit worse off. ass!! grrr... very bad tempered these days. den i get into a daze easily... den i feel tired easily... den i suddenly become very quiet coz i'm too tired to tink bt wat to say or to juz say sth... else i juz keep on saying nonsensical stuff. HARHAR! stress man... but i dun feel stressed. maybe its depression. LARLAR~ nonsense lah this entry. i juz toking to myself. BLEH!

for celebration, CTI came to our sch. singer dyle is so cute. haha, esp charming when he sang "tong hua" i use to hate e song!!! coz its sounds lyk those typical love songs. but he sing till sooooo nice + pronounciation is really good. dun sound very angmoh. haha. wee, chengying help me take foto wif him. wuhaha. i'll go frame it up. juz kidding~ a bit crazy today. i mean recently. haha.

why i like my father more?
-he bothers bt my existence while everyone else only sees my bro.
-u tell him u're sick, he takes u to e doc instead of saying "u're tinking too much" "its minor." "u still haf to go to sch!" OR "seeing e doc is so expensive!

-he doesnt stop u frm slping/gg out.
-he's a great cook.
-he doesnt make u eat n he himself diets.
-he buys u anything you want, of coz i dun ask for everything i want.

only bad thing is he's too generous, to everyone. haha. but at least he bothers. hai... maybe its coz she took e role of e stricter parent. but tt doesnt mean u dun care bt me when i'm sick, neva eva asked me bt sch or my life[cept once when i insisted u did wat other parents did], only cared bt my results, neva really rmb my frens but u do for his... forced me to wake up early in the morning when theres no sch n not knowing i only slpt at 2am[even if u knew, u still insist tt girls shd wake up early], neva really liked me being tan cept when ppl praises n u juz join in lyk oh, u luv me completely. always hoped i was lyk all other typical girls, being sweet n wearing skirts. luffs at my big feet, cares bt ur face more than how i feel...

life's bad. so many things gg on but "chem is my forte" is coming true. i feel lyk i kai qiao alr. hahaha. yes, study hard. everyone.

my gp haven kai qiao yet. ass. phy can wait a while more... lim sux la, seriously useless. no pt gg for his lessons anymore. i'm only gg for attendance coz hes ct afterall. *bad karma* die i keep badmouthing ppl recently. no gd~

i'm getting quite eccentric haha. today i got no appetite. hope it lasts. lol... stupid abraham bought his most hated cheesecake for himself by mistake. so i had to eat it. aiyo... now i dun feel lyk having anymore cheesecakes.

ooooh, so many movies to watch!!! click, lakehse + nacho libre. so many movies, so little time/money. okok i wan to study my fav sub alr. i'm getting 4As. weeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~ i can feel them coming haha. + B4 got gp haha.