Sunday, September 30, 2007 // 10:36:00 PM
back from bintan! i can feel my mind still gg up n down with the waves. its not really like its swirling, its really like im still on the ferry. pretty bumpy ride back today. and the air-con didnt seemed to work, OH MY GAWD.
we got to stay in e nirwana villa, IT IS GORGEOUS! very expensive but oh so heavenly.
the girls drove boss out of the room with seaview. haha. we didnt like ask him to leave, we just opened the door, saw the view and i saw his bag, we just got a bit noisy and left our bags on the floor. then he decided to leave the room with his bag. haha. cute boss.
paintball, banana boat(10-seater) and... tts abt all.
hahaha! i'm tired lo.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Thursday, September 27, 2007 // 3:09:00 AM
"FUCK IT! YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE, LOSER! IF YOU HAVE THE GUTS THEN BE A MAN, DONT DO SNEAKY ACTS. THEN YOU CAN WATCH ME KICK YOUR *censored*! go thank the crowd around, or else i wld haf punched you in the face. the difference between u n i is pinch n punch! faggot! pussy! bitch!
i'm done. thanks for tuning in folks!"
yay met geri n rongy today! timbre is a nice place =] seabreeze is a gd drink. haha, but the thought of having seen ms chua isnt so great haha. still cant confirm if its her thou cos tt girl seemed a lot taller n not as ... in the abdominal area. anw, the live band was alrite, prefer the one @ indochine. but this girl called amanda came on stage and wow, shes gd =]
these days i hate the weather frm 3pm - 6.30pm. its jus disgusting! so freaking hot and stuffy.
why cant global warming make it snow in sg? yes it says warming but... oh man...
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007 // 1:21:00 PM
wanted to swim on monday but it was too late and i was too full. anyway i took a walk n i saw an eye beside the moon! the sky was e pupil. wanted to take a pic but the 1st pic was blurred n the clouds were gone after tt. bleh. but i saw some nice quotes in the library(part of my walking trail, inclusive of air-con)
Like a lake that is always full, the heart of a kind person is always filled with love. - Hindu Saying
Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower. - Hindu Saying
中秋节快乐!
dwarfs, wanyi n steph celebrated @ wcp. haha hanging lanterns again. we succeeded in not burning any trees down again =] was quite fun, peix brought this... 'fan' thing n u can release it frm e motor n let it fly but we aren't very skilled. peix sent hers onto e tree so as part of this yr's jian fei/celebration, we started throwing lollipop n e motor @ e tree to bring the fan down. ended up this man playing wif his frens beside came n help. he threw his slippers n yes, the thing everyone expected happened - one of it got stuck in the tree too. eventually he got everyth down la. thnx haha.
im gg to stop here first. im pissed wif the MINI research paper. grrr...
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Sunday, September 23, 2007 // 11:10:00 PM
i think potential breakup song is not bad, interesting lyrics.
she got me lovestoned - gimme gimme moooore, gimme more, gimme gimme mooorre.
oh yes i think everyone's still concerned so i just want to say that i am thankful for being rejected. i cant tell you how blessed i feel.
i'm proud to be a psycho. *luffs*
i, i feel so alive! for the very first time.
and i think i can fly.
anw i apologise for my scary dental diary but its really retarded if i upload all tt in a words file n not refer to it. haha i jus saw 'kinky gay anime' in one of my old post. HAHAHAHAHA! lets play treasure hunt, first person to find which entry tt phrase is found in, will get... an autographed foto frm my dental diary. MOTIVATED? weeee!!
USE YOUR TIME WISELY! jia you yan ting.
researchers have proven that self-encouragement helps people to improve their grades.
alright, i made that up. heehee.
people change, especially kids. by newton's 3rd law of motion(haha), you don't have to worry about retribution, you just have to wait.
people with so much more bad karma than me.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
was searching for related articles for RP. turns out tt theres barely anyth on 'weight gain' but mostly on 'weight loss' so it seems like women or anyone concerned with weight issues, are only interested in LOSING n not the effects of GAINING. yes ppl jus heck it.
im super tired alr. nites. who wants to go bugis?
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Thursday, September 20, 2007 // 12:57:00 AM
My Dental Journal Article
august review : Post-NatDay celebrations!
in order to express my love for Singapore, heres the 'flag'
i tink im super bo liao.
September Review
yes shd haf chosen nicer colours for my bday at least. how can i rmb nat day n forgot bt my bday. anw... the colours look a lot nicer now tt dey've faded. tt bright blue looks greenish now. n the pink is less purplish too. =]]
so blue colours dun stay? trichometric of light. LOL
im talking rubbish. anw last sat, went back for MAF. i still dun like the word 'MAF' doesnt sound cool at all. haha. anw, thnk u to hongli, liqin, wantian, sinyee, mavis, ziying, yanling, cheng ying, phengs, der koon, jirong, yiyou... (did i miss out anyone?)
for celebrating my bday! thnx for e cake n present =]
oh n xuehui. my best fren zihan went to see his girlfren, forgetting my bday 3 yrs in a row. HAHAHAHA kidding. go go, shoo~ n mr yongxian was buying sushi in coro when all tt happened. n his sushi wrapper wif mayonaise n fish roe flew onto my leg. ok but thnk u for wishing me. n oso mr aik boon. WHERES MY PRESENT U SEXY GW!!
yay saw giugiu n shimu too =] but e event ended erm... me n hongli walked for half an hr till 6th avenue. haha. gd workout. very long neva go walking alr!!! i miss hong kong! i miss taipei's vege pau. shall go find some tuition n save some money.
ah jin's msn convo. HAHAHAH!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Sunday, September 16, 2007 // 5:21:00 PM
this entry is STRICTLY for myself.
if u read it n feels like im actually blaming u n u feel hurt or wateva, i dun care! its my post-bday benefit! jus go bang ur head against the wall.
the best present for myself right now will be... to get myself out of the
missing-out-on-everyth-fun-in-my-uni-life-till-now.
things i regret not doing :
1. not going camps
2. not joining any ccas
3. not gg for any auditions/welcome tea/wateva tts on thurs(becos i haf no sch)
4. not putting in more effort to make friends
5. not studying for my psych test tml! bloody hell!
im fine wif not staying in hall. i do believe its gg to be fun to haf a roomie n be close to ur neighbours since everyone's abt e same age. but no i dun need temptations of supper and i dun need interruption when im trying to study(not like ive been studying) but definitely its so much more convenient to go for class cos u dun haf to wait for the stupid bus. omg it rhymes.
1. this is the most irritating part, it keeps coming back. as long as someone asks 'hows sch' n dey go on wif 'i tot uni's suppose to be fun?' or 'uni not fun meh?'
FCUKED UP! ITS FREAKING BOTHERING ME ALL THE TIME!
ex-colleagues' been telling to go camps. i was so enthu. i duno why when the phamplets came, i totally chickened out. if e camps werent 1 wk and u dun haf to be wearing bikinis/swimming costumes, i tink i wld haf gone. BUT 2nd problem arises, thnx to darling protective frens whos been telling me army guys are bastards/despos, yes i dun like the idea of strangers touching me when clubbing alr. so i def wun like the idea of playing games with despo guys in the water. its not the image in my mind tt looks completely wrong, its wat's in theirs.
with their helpful constant psychotic advises and the support of news articles on 'sponsored by SDU' n how the public criticises the camps, i was completely not interested in gg for camps. and wasting my time cos its ONE FREAKING LONG WEEK! why is it so long?
so now yay, i can only blame myself n nobody else.
consequences of not gg : no frens, no seniors, no 'links' and these leads to the next major problem
2. no cca.
so the crazy girl goes on thinking too much and thinks she doesnt noe anybody, feels sick of sch with the chances of losing her way arnd... and i haf super low self-esteem and complete no confidence and chickened out from all the dance auditions and no idea wat ccas to join... everyth seems overwhelming. and then now im regretting. fcuk it.
ok so its alright. ccas, can always join next sem/yr(see i dun even noe when dey recruit ppl)
as for camps, either join as sub comm or senior-pretending-to-be-freshies. but the feeling is gg to be completely different. FCUK.
things im gg to do next sem/yr
1. join pretty turf, dance or kickboxing.
2. do sth abt the camps. will be asking arnd.
so for now, study freaking hard n look arnd for wateva sub-comm or wateva shit to join. I HAF NO LIFE!!! omggggggggggggggggggggg... i dun wan to look back and then regret.
I HATE YOU!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Friday, September 14, 2007 // 11:53:00 PM
too many to count.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Sunday, September 09, 2007 // 3:10:00 PM
Awakenings is nice! its abt this doctor, Dr Sayer who attempted to cure post-encephalitis patients. heart-wrenching one. esp when u see ppl 'awaking' to realise theyve been sitting in the hosp like a woodblock for 20-30yrs. its like uve wasted so much time n u didnt even noe abt it n u cant do anyth to change it. in the end, they went back to tt state again cos e med had side effects. so u see someone recovering and then slowly experiencing involuntary twitching of the body and eventually back to tt wood-block state. its sooo sad! if one becomes like tt, i tink its better to not noe u're like tt. cos i tink u cant even cry.
the red cardigan frm The Truman Show. so nice.
anw ysd went for my first erm shcj sg gathering. haha. so gd la, all of them, except me n this other girl, went for the shinhwa concert last yr. tmd... stupid prelims.
ive wasted another wkend.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Friday, September 07, 2007 // 9:32:00 PM
today super high! did 2 RP, 3 credits! yay! 7 more to go =] finally today i didnt jus stick to cake n bread. so glad. anw, i miss my tiger tooth leh. grrr actually ppl, i put braces cos... the tiger tooth blocked this other tooth n when i take fotos(esp passport ones) i look bo-geh. becos its like... blocked by tiger's shadow. so i gotta get it out or else next time nobody wan employ a bo geh girl. but then as in comes out , my tiger goes in n poof, its koko crunch! no la its gone. still cant decide if i shd tell my dentist to keep it. cos i tink its special. not like u can purposely grow one tiger tooth out. bleh. dilemma.
saw ms hss today. no la not hss pageant queen but san san. haha. n also P6 classmates omg, melissa n yueying. so qiao right. ok actually i saw someone frm P6 too. almost forgot bt her. so today's a breeze. im glad. and oh, wei~jian is coming out! wooo derrick~~~~~~ im gg crazy. but im stuck wif su da lu's ping lu n xiao yu zhou.
buck up deanee.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Thursday, September 06, 2007 // 11:40:00 PM
my mum needs to read
this im glad ive been jian-chi-ing my stand all these years. so parents dun always do sth for ur own good. sometimes they tink it is for ur own good w/o realising it isnt.
i want dean's list and i want that scholarship!!!
back in the ed-up mood again. i duno if a lvls was worse or this. no , no , no , no . not all enough to ask me along. just left with myself to die. if i werent told to not be wasteful n picky, i wld haf stuck to my vegetarian+fish only diet. if they hadnt accused me of sth tt wasnt true n she hadnt stupidly believed 6-year-olds, i cld haf been an artist. if she hadnt accused my fren and he hadnt believed her, i will be a tracker all my life. if i hadnt given a stupid ans(and for tt once, she actually listened to me.), i will be able to play piano now. if only they had listened to me more and not tt biased, i wldnt talk so loud. if only they had believed me more and laughed at me lesser(balanced pair. haha.), i wldnt be so timid. if i was allowed to be myself... i cant even tell if this is me now.
anyway, its really bad to keep listening to lin junjie's SHA SHOU. you'll eventually feel like you hate the world and you want to kill someone. even though the song is really nice. ok i sound like a potential psycho-killer. *selami selamo* i duno why the hell the words suddenly become so small.
its small becos u're not supposed to read it!
yes, i am gg to be a mugger. i promise from today onwards, i'll be more involved in school, more daring, more studious, more right in the mind, more determined to strive towards my goal, more 'decided', learn more things. i WILL be damn gd at sth(decent/proper/wow-ppl) by the end of this 4 years.
i want to learn jap, korean, piano, maybe french. baking can wait. its 'useless' n ive lost tt immense interest for cakes ever since ive been eating the same swiss roll for breakfast, lunch, dinner for 2 days. other than tt, its bread. thnx to my 12.5 stainless steel rectangular wire. rocks. like joy says, suddenly ur world turns into darkness.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007 // 12:36:00 AM
im gg to post more intelligent entries from now onwards. [but rubbish will appear once in a while. maybe the other way rnd] haha.
anw, its so amazing tt we've been conditioned all these yrs and we're totally unware of it. it only dawned upon me during lecture today. when the dog was made to think that the ringing of the bell signifies 'lunch is coming'. yes, for 12 yrs, we've been eagerly waiting for tt bell when noon approaches. was there a bell in nursery?
and i was reading this article for hw101(its on english, not psych) but the article is on psych hahaha. but its really interesting! cos we always instinctively know/think that blind ppl are more sensitive to sensation and sound. and we dun usually haf an explanation for it, i just use to think its becos their brains didnt have to do 'visual' so they focus more on sound n touch.
so the study says... its becos the part of the brain tt is responsible for visions has switched its function to be detecting audio/sensation instead. but tts if the person loses sight at a young age.
maybe if not at young age also will but takes an amt of time too?
so there is an explanation. amazing eh, our brains. the brain.
its a daaaaaaammn coooolld night.
i feel intellectual already. heehee.
im a super mugger! if i dun get onto dean's list...
I'LL STIL MUG!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Sunday, September 02, 2007 // 2:09:00 AM
woah im so addicted to secret ost now. wish i can play piano. why did i tell my mum 'zhang da zai xue'?? in fact i dun even rmb her ever asking me if i wan to learn. was telling joy n amanda abt my name. very sad stories... was top scorer on a lvl results day n 2nd wk of sch i'm a very good runner. misunderstandings. and i know both of them. haha. maybe my mum shdnt haf used 'ting'. i want to be good in sth! as in really good!
i need somemore ktv. my rm is clearing[like a storm is subsiding] haha. i am gg to mug tomorrow! next yr i'll be on dean's list.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
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