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=updated 29/04=
i think ysd's papers were bad. i dont feel good about them but hopefully can pass digi lifestyle overall. i kind of calculated.
i dont noe if its the lack of sleep n too much stress but prev i was having hallucinations and illusions. stimes i'll see black shadows that move which i'll think its li----- or stimes from the corner of my eye, sth tt isnt suppose to move, moved. its not like eerie or what but i know the thing didnt actually move but my eyes were playing tricks on me. tsk tsk. apparently, i think that incident few wks back jus made me develop a phobia and ocd. im turning crazy.

finally, its liberation! but as annie said, yah, suddenly duno what to do. feel like reading my textbooks again, like properly. i am so hardworking right! ok later i'll go write down the list of things to do and WATCH. hohoho. ringo's son. HAHAHA! i think queen is very cute! shes so funny =] anyway, go to www.a-startutor.com and see whats on their frontpage. lol, i got a shock for a while. dont know what the hell hes doing. give us some peace, hes attacking us psychologically and wasting our resources when prices are rising. inflation! i dont really know whats that but ppl have been talking abt it so i guess its just abt the food and oil prices. and pls dont attempt to explain that to me on my tag or anywhere. im not interested. not like it'll go away after u explain.
you know those stupid taiwanese political talk shows that my mum loves to watch and then get pissed off stimes? i think they are intellectual and stupid at the same time. you see a panel of people with different expertise, analysing the country's situation and the government and the leaders and recent issues... yes they are using a lot of their brain cells to come up with a lot of ideas, good and bad arguments but hey, after wasting a few days coming up with the speech that is only allowed 1 min 20 seconds on screen, nothing changed. i mean, if you have sth good, do sth about it. make a proposal or sth and not just criticise other ppl or back up your own side and at the end, everyone's still quarrelling and unable to settle on one pt and tts the end of the show. the next episode, everything continues. oh and, the audience gets pissed off cos you remind them of the bad things and the e-veil~ or maybe you made them a little happier because you backed up their views. but then, you didnt improve the situation! of cos its easy for me to talk about this but yah, i dont see any of you say 'i think thats a good idea. next week, i'll talk to blah blah about this.' its just like those times i keep complaining about rubbish and dont do anything about it. you'll just hear more from me if i dont change myself.

but good effort on studying! cos my bro took my laptop away =] can totally concentrate. haha. until after 200 paper. then i start to go crazy and waste time, not online but doing random stuff. bleh. that explains the 203 tragedy. digi is solely due to my lack of motivation, and loneliness. =p
apparently, while my laptop was away from me, i unlock the 'remember my password' function on my msn cos my bro needs msn too. after a few days, my list of contacts was EMPTY! and all of you received this stupid email from me about some purchasing website. I DIDNT SEND IT. i dont know who did or what happened to my msn but its very irritating.
so ysd i was tryin to add some people back and i kind of got lazy. for some people, i didnt add them back becos i was really plain lazy. i tried my best to consider if i'll talk to you to add you back, even if its once in 2 years. but for some, *note : this is a totally AWFUL thought, ok i decided not to post it. HAHAHAHA! spoils my image.

im feeling kind of accomplished recently, not that im abt to die and am accepting it, as devtal psych wld state about late adulthood for the oldest-old. HOHOHO~ reminds me of queen n r--go's son. lol. my step-brother oh, so glad the proj's over. down with 3 papers, 2 more to go!!! ysd was SERIOUSLY bad. i felt like i was really gg to go crazy but i was still sane enough to actually negotiate with myself if i shd break down now[last nite] n cry n get over with it[which i may or may not] and cont studying or just harden my scalp[ying4 zhe4 tou2 pi2] and pia even thou i cant get anyth into my head. eventually i decided that losing it is a total waste of time which does not solve the problem and just the other day, i watched project runway #4 and in it, this girl cldnt quite finish her work n she started crying after she poked herself while sewing [i was like, wth. its just a POKE~] and the other participants[ppts, i use that in my notes] told her she shd just hang in there and finish her work, after that few mins, she can cry all she wants. a guy n a girl said tt. i was impressed with the guy. from the abovementioned scenario, we have sufficiently used the idea of priming (quoted by Santrock, Developmental Psychology, pg 253) and stereotyping (quoted by SomeguywithbadenglishlikeSantrock, Social Psychology, pg 435). Ok the pages are fake. oh my seat number today is 1234. so nice hor! i did sth stupid for 200 paper, i went to the wrong seat cos i rmbered my 203 index instead and guess what, the 2 adjacent rows were actually empty, so was mine n whats even better is, my table didnt have any exam paper! thats when i realised i was at the wrong place so i asked to check. hahahaha! but ok, it didnt take me long to realise i sat at the obviously wrong place. Piaget states that during adolescence, we attain Formal Operational Thinking. However, critics have mentioned that there should be a postformal operational stage. but, 202 is over! lets do some 203 now. the most relevant self-applicable theory ive learnt today is still the one on Attachment (Ainsworth, when she came up with it) which states that I am AVOIDANT. thank you *bows* ok enough of rubbish for the day. amanda, i bought a bag of koukis the other day, for dunking! tried it with milk tea, a bit funny, maybe cos its instant milk tea. maybe kouki prefers kopi. HAHAHA OMG! tt was so random n impromptu. sorry ppl.

now i know why people think psychologist[even just majors] can be kind of eccentric and psychotic themselves. i think im turning into one cos according to social psych, one of the easiest ways to remember things is through self-relevance. hence, i apply all the theories on myself and the people around me. how scary is tt. even if u're not mad, i assume u're mad. =p anw i feel like im suffering from cognitive dissonance[again~], obessive compulsive disorder[again again!], left in the stage of mistrust, probably leads to stagnation in the later part of my life, ambivalence... currently having no accessibility heuristics so i cant rmb what other impt terms there are. VERY BAD but i tink i can rmb most of the expts. damn my ulcer hurts, super heaty these days. ok 3+ more chpts to go till i finish reading 203. amazing man, 2 days only but i doubt i can finish tonight. jia you beh~ zai jia jiu fei si le beh.

i underestimated her. i thought she was in beginner's class or sth.
NO! ms smart woman seems to know A LOT! and hey, i read e instructions its jus tt i DONT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE WORD INSIDE except kudasai. soooo angry!!!! but then again she may be sprouting rubbish again. bahhh shant care abt others. hope i can do well. if not i'll be VERY SAD. rahhhh
saw wu zun after the paper. haha i only waved, didnt call his name cos i duno wat to say HAHAHA. super funny but anw we both got the question wrong, diff mistakes but oh well, ultimately its still wrong. bahhh.

did i say i collected my shinhwa 9th jib? anw i tink its quite ex cos i made 2 payments but i cant rmb how much i paid. stupid right. anw shdnt have cos... its not like i need their photobook. i thought there'll be special stuff. ok just some stickers and i'll paste one on my new laptop but who knows when im getting it. voyage is super duper nice. very emo though. but i love it, i hope they'll make a mv for the song. its oooh, ultimate emoness. HAHA. someone told me they tot 'emo' meant 'elmo' cant rmb who but its quite funny. heh. AZUMA! lols.

i hope she rmbs to up my pay. else i'll be VERY SAD. feel like quiting all my jobs. life sucks. ok bro thinks its the ppl who sucks but still, life sucks. i dont know what im doing with myself recently. as in recent years. its becoming aimless and meaningless and useless. kind of lifeless too. blehhh.

ok may pms pls stop. heard w-inds. new song ysd. its good =] but i think keita shd eat more, his cheeks sinks in!! omg. if only im as skinny right. HAHA. but i watched a show on them ysd n he says his body fat is only 7%. OMG! i tink im 70 or sth. anw here goes,

3 more days. for my son, i'll do well =p
jinnie, jia you with jap ok. i can give you tuition, $30/hr. hohoho.
and yeah i love reading your blog =] you know... stimes i think i rather people not say anything. of cos dont give me like 'oh you deserve it' kind of acknowledgement, but dont say things that we all know dont make sense. becos while i know you're not hypocritical, you sound like you are. ok, im not blaming anyone. ultimately its my own fault. but there are also times when it isnt cos there're some things that we cannot control/anticipate. however, instead of giving it some stupid excuse, just face it. its reality. and dont link everything to it! it doesnt make sense!!! gimli is right, people are just lazy. and perhaps when you're not, you're afraid of finding out the truth and facing it. but then again, too much into it isnt good. look at my dad. hes pissing my mum off apparently. i dont know what to do about them becos chinese thinks that its rude to tell your 'elders' what to do. and i may not be right since im avoidant. HAHAHA.

kind of sick of psych. bahhhh~ have i said i failed something? ok i did. and the lizo is out of my room. WOO! they shall NEVER come back. and pray that tt disgusting earthling didnt reproduce in my room.
oral was... weird. my teacher asked me 6Qs after the warm-up Qs. WHY WHY WHY?! ppl only had 3. its either im too good, she wants to see if she can gimme A, or im too bad[cos i cant rmb if i used particles and the RIGHT ones] and shes trying to gimme more marks, else i just spoke too fast she thinks she needs more ans to assess. SO WEIRD~ but yeah, i cant really rmb what i said.
still kind of xian with hw. dont get it. for all the poor roses that wilted and the trees killed[for our drawing blocks] so sad.
right, you said sth. haha now we all know how sucky it is and what you said DONT MAKE SENSE. back to the topic, thnx bro for the sms. i like your friend's article. HAHAHA. finally someone voices it out. i hope they read it. they shd in fact post it worldwide. i think its a SERIOUS problem. ok i better stop. its not a very good topic to dwell on.
this entry has not much coherence. that said, when will we finish our 200 proj? that cute dude with a great smile is lousy!!! give it at this timing. maybe hes doing a stats paper on 'how students cope with stress'. maybe he shd have measured my biological & facial responses on friday, it shd show STRESS IS HIGHLY SIGNIFICANT AT .01 lvl. Conclusion : doing proj near the exam period is causes a sig increase in stress in students.

i seriously need to tell myself to STOP complaining. i think im gg to take korean. not because you asked for someone to teach you, because i rmbed telling myself to learn it when i bought my SHINHWA DVD at a reduced price but w/o subtitles. its my SHINHWA not yours. check out what shinhwa means if you dont get what im saying *evil smile*

oh after tuition i went starbucks @ paragon to collect their 9th jib. woohoo~ its nice but most of the songs sound like they'll be played in korean clubs. HAHAHA. i dont like dongwan so much anymore. oops. and there was like congestion outside starbucks cos all the girls crowd arnd and the distributors had to move arnd the basement and stuff. poor them.

what a lousy week ive had.

i kind of hated myself totally on the way home but now i think i liked myself a little bit more. i finally found the way to de-stress. i wrote everyth[almost] down and tore them into pieces. i kind of decided i am going to buy a new laptop but i dont know what to do with this current one. nobody's going to buy it with a faulty screen. i can always earn money back *self-affirms*

ok so this week has been KIND OF BAD. and suddenly B looks disgusting. should i take korean for special sem? anw i conclude that i am not a very nice person, seriously. at least im honest =] OK! see you, dean's list, next year.

im a lousy daughter/sister part II
all i do is scream and run and make them do sth for me but i really cant help it. i duno why i am SO SCARED of $&%*$#&%?* but i am just this scared. smart me, maybe its an instinct, i kicked my cupboard/bed, nth. suddenly i jus tot i'll fling the curtains and YES ITS ON MY WINDOW GRILL, what the @&%!#(*$*@&%*$%^@*#&. freakkkkkkk n i had to run out carrying my heavy bag with my jiao ruan-ness. totally tiring. eventually, brotherly love and motherly love helped to get rid of it, supposedly, logically, matter of factly... it shd be gone but I CANT HELP BUT THINK THAT IT MAY BE HIDING BEHIND MY CUPBOARD! and wats wrong, wat if it REPRODUCED in my room? omg, any good psychologist on treating traumas? but dun solve it the OCD way, force u to look at it n blah blah to overcome your fear because no it doesnt work. or maybe i'll sink into 1 year of depression + ultimate OCD of constant having to bathe and scrub/scratch my skin and pulling my hair and wateva. nooooooooooooooooooo. i am so super traumatised after 2 consecutive days of rubbish. may i wake up peaceful and fine tomorrow =] i think right now, i am extremely paranoid and suffering from lizophobia with a slight amt of OCD[i keep kicking the cupboards and flinging the curtains and checking wherever i can]. AND THE DAMN THING SHITTED ON MY CUPBOARD. @$&%(*$(@*#($. piss off n fcuk some gays man!

me and my big kuku mouth. i knew i shdnt haf made tt stupid comment but i finally did and today i came home, i saw the huge disgusting creature in e deepest corner of my room, somewhere above my bed. WHAT SHIT!!!! now i cant slp. super traumatised. According to Terr's theory (1991), it is evident that childhood traumas carry itself into adulthood.

fri night, stayed over @ airport wif diu n liqin. i jus slpt thruout haha lousy. neva study!!! sent ah yan off in e morning~~~ oh man, take care ok! jia you too. i know you can heh. and i am so tired now, even after so much sleeping. duno wat to do.
shd i buy a new laptop? but i duno wat to do with lao ye. poor thing. hes been with me for soooo long. shd i get fujitsu or lenovo? but lenovo quite ugly. HAHAHA. i think i shd slp n i haven been studying. sucks.

Reference
Terr, L. (1991). Childhood traumas: An outline and overview.
American Journal of Psychiatry, 148, 10-20.

when one tactic doesnt work, do you use something else or do you switch targets?

ONE DOWN! after friday i'll be free like a bird. wrong metaphor right. haha. anyway, so proud of my report. i think that's one of my most creative/smartest ideas since P4. LOL. may 111 be a breeze =]

i dont read newspapers/magazines as often as i use to but its really disturbing when i find BAD MISTAKES. feel like taking a red pen and mark or send them an e-mail to tell them how much their language sucks. gosh, what has the editors been doing? slacking off? stimes i type bad english too but im not paid to do this right. and my blog isnt suppose to be educational so who cares. but newspapers these days... tsk tsk tsk.

to tt dude who put the blame on someone else. you'll get your retribution because you're dealing with your own life, money and someone's livelihood. making such as accusation is REALLY BAD for your karma. you'll get it back doubled. yes, im cursing you.

maybe those fortune tellers are fake. at first i thought things were coming true but suddenly i realise, they only seem to be but they aren't. lets wait till may or november to find out. but for now, bah.

this is really funny. YANNIE, YA, IKAN BILIS. now im bilisting. HAHAHA! inside joke. heehee. and i have a new love, my cute little boy. he is SERIOUSLY cute.







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