i keep dozing off on the bus these days. like serious deep sleep (those kind that you even tend to leave your mouth hang open) maybe im sinking into depression. i rmb jit neng says tts why we r so tired even thou we haf enuf slp. ok i dont think i have enuf quality slp, with all that freaking drilling and i'll be half aslp by 8.30am. OMG I AM SO STRESSED!!!! high need for achievement.

挡我者死！

Jap listening and oral next wk!! good luck everybodeh~ today is the last time us jap buddies get to eat lunch tgt after class. oh so sad. we always have GREAT FUN (laughing at kelvin) heehee. i got seriously tired and was sweating after lunch. how bad is tt.
and for once, im gg to slp before 1am. yay. NOBODY STOPS ME! nites everybodeh~

*stuffs some earplugs* can they STOP drilling the roads???????
i think im kind of into my o lvls mood right now but the only problem is, i get pissed off REALLY EASILY and any kind of NOISE just irritates me. and now its non-stop drilling tt starts promptly at 8.30. is the government brainless or sth? dont they know this is the exam season for o/a lvls n uni?! ARE THEY TRYING TO DRIVE US CRAZY?? damn im gg to the library NOW. can i kill somebody?

oh i found out wats with the busy-ness this sem. yr 1 sem 1 i had 2 maths modules and 2 cores, sem 2 i had 1 with 2 half cores (come on, communications isnt anyth compared to psych). n now i have 1 but 3 cores full of psych and memorising. RAHHHHHH. more maths pls. of cos its a problem too when you dont understand e.g. stats. hahaha. but then it was fun studying tt. at least i didnt have to rmb sooo much!!! and read sooo much!!! the notes were enuf! what am i doing taking humanities??

wow i think psych is my calling. that day i was just tinking of a certain sth and then i tot abt this idea that they jus target on vulnerable ppl. ppl who are weak, tortured, suffering... basically people with problems in their life that they cant really solve. i mean thats the way to gain support isnt it? we can refer back to the case of hitler where the germans followed him because they needed someone to represent them to make Germany powerful again. of cos tt was our own analysis but tts pretty much the case. and then i was reading personality psych n i saw this [isnt this similar to a certain situation that certain ppl get and they claim it to be sth? haha. how ambiguous can i get?] people in identity deficit are particularly vunerable to the propaganda of various groups. ^note identity deficit arises when a person has not formed an adequate identity and thus has trouble making major decisions. basically its saying the person's (feeling) lost. maybe i shd go do research instead of clinical BUT im rather biased. oh in either field, its not gg to be a good thing.

people can be crazy and you cant blame them. and right now, i think im gg crazy. i get pissed off very easily and im starting to have warped ideas. tt day i was telling chu that im hoping for ppl to go mad. to state clearly my warpness, its actually cos they are partly mad alr so just let them realise it and get to the completely-mad stage. hmm... i think im gg to get retribution for such evilness. kk, choi choi. *touch wood*

anw i was reading this fren of fren's blog and he wrote sth funny like why he still hasnt gotten his first gf. and then he lists the point allocations for each category/characteristic to look for. and the way he wrote it is interesting man. how come i never thought of doing that? HAHA.

miss stressed up is gg to watch L : change the world before all her pimples pop out. thou i shd be slping. how contradictory.

haha i love my dad! its so weird if you want me to say that in chinese but anw, he showed my mum n i a magic trick that he use to do when i was a kid. gosh, i tot this time i'm gg to figure out where the coin went n I REALLY SAW IT in his other hand but when he opened both hands, IT WASNT THERE!!! omg, then we just laughed like crazy. i laughed so hard my feet were kicking/slamming against the mattress. its so funny i dont know why! and then i realised its behind his neck but he could still turn and move around and then i thought, DAMN ITS NOT EVEN THERE! WHERE DID IT GO? ok eventually im sure the stupid coin was on his neck and hes got great skills balancing it there while moving and stuff. 太好笑了！想念小时候的时光，最喜欢爸妈逗我笑。

crap im watching russell peters again. i think ive watched half of what im watching now but its still funny. gosh, somebody save me from this sem.

a real person pls.

ok now, im watching elmo and rove. gosh, elmo is soooo cute!!!
i love that voice. omg. and rove's laughter. ahhhhhh. wheres my saviour?

今日のクラスで伊藤先生は私達に一枚写真を示した。えと。。。その写真の中に主人がいる。＊デァンデァンデァンデァン＊　木村拓哉です！　宜しく～
先生と私の会話

私　：大好き！
先生：おいくつ？３０。。。
私　：３６歳。
先生：でも、奥さんがいますよね。
私　：大丈夫！

ok that was total craziness. please ignore, even better if you dont understand. i can feel jeffrey laughing at me alr. and today kelvin's instincts worked pretty well. he kept hurting ALL of us. tsk. haha. 大家的伤疤只会越来越大。

this week is going to be happening! im glad =]

oh my internet's been down for days. i can sign into msn but i cant load a single webpage after i load one. no more youtube, no more crunchyroll, no more viwawa, no more hotmail, no more blogging, no more facebook, no more comics, no more dramas.
no more jin. =[

does that sound obsessed to you? haha
ive tried everyth anyone can possibly think of, excluding the pros thou. this is so irritating. maybe my com's gg on a strike in an attempt to make me study. its working btw.

time REALLY flies. can anyone tell me why this term passes so quickly even thou ive got a 4-day wk? i tot last sem was bad because i had to go to sch everyday even thou its a freaking 2-hr lecture and i was kind of getting busy. this term i'm still busy but at least i have friday off but the weeks just pass like *thinks hard* the speed of light? ok i cant complete that sentence. hahaha. lets play a game, fill in the blank above and i'll see who has the most appropriate phrase/word that describes FAST LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS.

The Hitler Project is down, woots. now theres a nap vs memory presentation coming up. suddenly im not scared of presentations anymore. isnt that good? =]
on tues, me, joy and amandak went to CASH STUDIO.
omg! even thou the pvs are seriously FAKE except its asians this time, the place is full of jap songs! woooo~ but our ability to read and sing at the same pace is kind of bad =p we'll buck up. heh. and the place is so cheap, 3 of us, 3 hours only for $33! and my stupid mini pack of cashew nuts cost $2. i would suggest people going to bring their own snacks. i got to sing MY FATE! yay~

anw mtv chinese is changed to mtv china now. damn. no more of my jkpop slot. its only half an hr for jkpop charts now. what sh*t. the worst part is, you hear a certain accent when you tune over. i rather not watch it so often now. i really dont know why im biased. i know some of them are nice but they have too many black bah baaaahs around to kill the entire nation. just look at the milk man. we dont even need to wage war, they have apparently came up with a easier way to disrupt everyone's lives and the world economy. is this the new way to NO-VIOLENCE? well guess i just have to learn to get use to them and possibly, be nice. since smart singapore is inviting MORE and MORE and NEVER-ENDINGLY MORE of them.

i feel like getting one of those netbooks. whatsmore, my current desktop is SERIOUSLY pissing me off. any IT whizz cares to help? but pls stop asking me if my webpage is fine everyday when i come onto msn because when ITS NOT, it pisses me off even more when you remind me of it. im kind of using the REPRESSION mechanism now. like, I DONT WANT TO TALK ABT IT. its pretty much the same as questions like 'hows hc?', 'hows uni?(in my first sem)', 'hows psychology?', 'im sure its interesting.'
there are things people just DONT WANT to talk abt. haha.

i like reading abnormal psych~ its confusing, too many details but its sth tt we arent aware of. you cant use common sense to deduce if someone is schizo or antisocial. because we've got the terms all mixed up. anw, hitler prob has paranoid schizo. and probably so do some of my XX frens. lol. dont ask me what XX stands for, im not telling u unless you hold the same view as me towards XXy. isnt my blog getting more interesting? i have fill-in-the-blanks and now algebra. read this i think its cute, the puns. lol.

so, why cant people just respect other people? i dont get it. anw the lazy woman has decided to cancel tuition and go out with the bui zais. hi people, long time no shee. oh met up with choir girls ysd, with the appearance of a huge fat lizard that ran down the wall, as last seen from the corner of my eye. YEEKS!

我们都在找方便。只是对“方便”的定义不同。

他X的还有6个单元没读完！考个屁啊？明天不想上学了！

now im having solid coughs. like 真材实料. anw i hate the medicine. i dont take them in the day becos they make me drowsy but precisely cos i dont take my med regularly, maybe thats why i cant recover but if i do, i cant study for my test and this time i really really started early and am in the mood to study. tmd. whats with me and midterms? maybe its a curse. ok its not, im not like obsessed with ¹hodahodahoda.

i kind of like reading eating disorders and depressive disorders. currently, i think im showing symptoms for depression. see below.

their heads may reverberate with self-recriminations. paying attention can be so exhausting that they have difficulty absorbing what they read and hear. they often view things in a very negative light, and they tend to lose hope. which accounts for me thinking im growing fat, esp everytime i weigh myself and i cant exercise cos im coughing like mad. also, i think i cant finish studying.

physical symptoms include fatigue and low energy, as well as physical aches and pains. people with depression typically feel exhausted, they may find it hard to fall asleep and may wake up frequently. other people sleep throughout the day. they may find that food tastes bland or that their appetite is gone, or they may experience an increase in appetite. sexual interest disappears. some may find their limbs feel heavy. thoughts and movements may slow for some but other cannot sit still. intiative may disappear. withdrawal from others is common and some people neglect their appearance.

ignore the part on sexual interest. HAHAHAHA. ok im still joking.
but ive been getting headaches and i seriously dont feel sleepy at night even though ive taken my med. isnt this weird? its suppose to be drowsy! and i seriously have difficulty absorbing stuff from my text, unless its related to me. but i know i can hear jin singing, still =p ok digressed. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. but the last point states thoughts about suicide are common im not there yet, dont worry.

tong xue men, da jia liao jie le ma? yao shi shen bian you ren chu xian yi shang zhen zhuang, qing jin kuai rang ta men jiu yi huo jie shou zhi liao.

¹ my jap teacher uses this funny sound when she wants to give an example but i cant rmb so i came up with my own. i think hers is honyarahonyarahonyara.

i was educated the other day and now i shall educate all of you. we usually define anorexia nervosa as starving oneself and bullemia as puking
BUT this is very wrong. apparently, theres a purging and non-purging type for both. which results in me, being bullemic non-purging type. haha. but its true. quite true. maybe im not to the extent of ultimate fear of gaining weight bt i fit most of the criteria. HAHAHA. so the main difference is actually anorexia being associated with massive weight loss and bullemia as having normal weight.
tong xue men, da jia liao jie le ma?

one day im going to come up with a theory on this vicious cycle that exists among women. what is it with the yoyo-effect and periodic binges and fasting/dieting? cant stand it. when i get enlightened one day, i'll share with everyone my 2nd theory on the road to success.

so. i think ive been doing well in keeping myself off the internet at wee hrs thou eventually i may still sleep late but at least im off the evils of the computer. and so is my sms-ing records. proud of myself. heh. may this sustain =]
oooh went for the waseda uni talk today. damn i dont have the booklet!!!! i soooooo want to go. ah yan, i envy you. pls dont tell me you wanna go tioman. PLEASE. you cant compare the 2 places.
anw i was telling some of you about my weird/querky BUT brilliant idea. instead of trying to marry a japanese, i should just marry Mr Kaneshiro Takeshi or better known as 金城 武。since hes half taiwanese half japanese, the by-product - offsprings/young/kids, will still be a mix of sg n japan. HAHAHAHA. for people who cant stand my insanity, please close the window NOW.
that was just a joke anw. im sane but it does make sense, dont you think?
oh i just found out his effectively multilingual. ou xiang~









the most ridiculous thing that happened in class one day was some smart alec-ia(since shes female) telling me hes from hong kong and his surname is 金。time to go~