so i sit here and type away and turn myself into a robot again. this is so boring. i cant even smile to myself in front of the screen, cos tts kind of freaky but some ppl really say funny things. anyway, ysd i was at this psych study and i was given a mini Thematic Apperception Test. u're basically suppose to make up your own stories about the people in the pictures given to you. at first, i cldnt think of anything. it happens all the time. i can only do things like the picture description we did in pri oral. no my IQ isnt lower than avg. then i got myself warmed up and my stories got interesting from the 2nd pic onwards. then i wrote this evil story. somehow, i had hoped for it to come true. will it?

im so hungry. cont after work.
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CRABBIES XMAS PARTY! if you consider 4 person enough for a party. the rest got to dodo's hse with the groceries and i was late, after work. valid reason heh.

LASAGNE TIME! gosh there was $30 worth of cheese and 3 boxes of minced meat and a dozen potatoes. how can we eat so much? so there were ced's original baked portobello mushrooms, our infamous lasagne and mashed potatoes. loads of carbo and meat with cheese/mayo. a rather scary meal if you took part in the cooking. haha. conclusion was, its cheaper and easier to just order pizza and lasagne. lol nevertheless, fun =]

SMART ASS TIME! with appearance of TABBY. first time i stroked the cat cos i always thought hes gg to scratch me. CATS, I LOVE YOU! oh on the way to dodo's hse, i saw this funny cat sleeping in a weird position, its leg was hanging in midair, i wonder how it held it there. then i thought maybe the word catatonia came from cats. before i could snap a pic, it sensed my presence and woke up. i cant really draw so just picture a dog peeing, but flipped sideways, as if its lying down but the leg still raised. odd isnt it? back to tabby, hmm... nevermind, lets go on to SMART ASS. damn i cant answer a single question on WHAT AM I or WHO AM I? i lack serious general knowledge, esp of the western world. i sure hope my future job wont be related. but i made 2 lucky guesses on HARD ASS. what an entry hur. anw ced won. or was it dodo? cant rmb.

ROCKBAND TIME! after much practise/listening, yay i can finally sing some songs correctly. haha. but how to train psychomotor hur? finally, I PRONOUNCE YOU CHUCK AND LARRY. funny show. merry xmas people and to the missing two.

zing gave a great suggestion which sparked an idea so that coming this september, all you people can 大出血。 i'll keep a lookout on the phone models and trustworthy dealers. oh gosh, this is so exciting. i'll wait patiently =]

this sem, many ppl r gg on exchange. i hope u guys have fun. and to the always-been-fortunate-yet-ungreatful-bastards, take a look at the less fortunate and stop your nonsense and yakking and stop talking to me like the thing you take for granted applies to me and everyone else too.

you know, im such a evil person. i cant tell you where my evilness ends. i do, i mean i think about such horrible things and words. it doesnt exactly scare me because tts me but if people do find out, what will they think of me? or maybe everyone's just as evil. its jus how much you reveal. hiak hiak hiak. happy holidays! its ending. TIAN AH~

ok i'll stop asking for money to drop from the sky. can you make them happier?

merry xmas everybody.

i hope this is the end of my unlucky-ness/traumas. today i waited for peix for 2 hrs, actually its ok. haha i was just sitting there and playing sudoku on my phone and then i went over to kino but it was packed with people. the only bad thing was i lost my pouch. either someone took it from my bag or i dropped it when i took something out from my bag. theres my ic, atm card, cashcard, $10 and hairpins. pls dont tamper wif my ic. 南無阿彌陀佛 ~

on 22 nov i said 'say hello to my dream' and there it came in my dreams. i dreamt that a fren has an old jap hp, part of the flap is missing and it pretty much looks and feels like a toy (cos we were pressing the buttons) but gosh, i really want it. when is my $1 000 000 going to drop from the sky?

proud to announce myself a finisher of 80km walk. lol. the cert says
You have shown uncommon determination and great willpower to walk this distance for a good cause.

and so my self-torture starts on Saturday morning a.k.a (only for the nan hua fellows) 又是一个美丽的星期六 (or sth like that. cant rmb what that old man use to say). as always im late but glad i wasnt the latest. kind of a bad impression for ppl you meet the first time. anw, we set off from MINDS @ Margaret Drive at ~8am. By 8.45am, we're seated in the food center nearby for our breakfast. lol. my ba chor mee accompanied with a story of csm puking on lord k back in the olden days. i think 我是笑饱的。
next, we went along queenstown and got to hort park and the southern ridges and icantrmbthenamesoftheplaces. then it was buona vista, then bukit timah @ NUS Law School. then SJI and there was this long hike/trek along the AYE. wheres my walking stick?!

soon, we reached thomson road. next checkpoint was J8 for lunch/dinner. for the rest of the journey, i pretty much got lost so we passed by the guys' houses and visited Kembangan, Tampines, Pasir Ris Park, Changi Village... many freaking park connectors along the way. this particular one joining Changi and East Coast Park that spans 8km w/o a single toilet that almost killed me but several pavilions/ting(s) where the guys start making fun of my name. lol. but before that, they made fun of everyone else already, pretty much. cant really rmb all the details thou, my brain kind of switched off after 12am. but how come the guys have such fun(crazy) school life compared to mine? Finally we made it our alive and im so glad for the existence of the various public transports in singapore. Final stop - Plaza Sing for lunch. its the 2nd day already, its not a 2nd lunch. Theres this funny photographer with great facial expressions. cracked me up. Lulu, we survived each other's company for 29hours! congratulations to bridges, jigglypuffs : the sexy barbaric bulldozers and hoseh! funny names right? anw, the soles of my army shoes came off, like after walking 10km. time to get new shoes.

after another wkend of good night's sleep (its so efficient i close my eyes and i concus immediately. no more toss and turns or fidgiting), i saw this topic on a discussion board "If there is no xxx... What comes after life?"... well i really want to say, then its the time you crazy overly-blinded people wake up and face reality like it is. I know I complain too much but at least I'm relatively logical/rational. decided not to post a reply becos its gg to start a never ending war. what a waste of my time. anti-socially inclined woman haha.

oh i suddenly remembered... the attack of reptiles within 2 days. i was in one of the cubicles in changi park and due to my yrs of trng, experience n great intellect, i knew i had to check e walls before i even pee at ease and so i looked up, DAMN ITS THIS SCALY *censored* in dark grey. URGH! i didnt scream but i banged the metal door immediately and got out. why why why.
2nd encounter - just a while ago, i was alone at home and ms greedy mouth was gg to get some food from the fridge and she saw the most disgusting silhoutte on earth behind the kitchen door and she freaked out. its huge and disgusting and dark grey too(behind the blue translucent door) but rather sure w/o scales. if it has, then i think im being followed. so i yelled and groaned and squealed but theres nobody to save me. AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! *shuts down*

OH SO TEMPTING!!! take a look HERE!! Think I'll get one since giu says my fone is old. is 2 yrs old? i have no idea, i always think things shd last. maybe i'll go down to the shop one day. *hands itching* first i shd work a bit more in the library. money money money.

fangirl time. just started watching Honey and Clover ハチミツとクローバー I know theres a taiwan version. i have no idea why theres like different versions of the same thing, best example is meteor garden. gosh, why will anyone want to rewatch the same story acted by different people in different places 3 times?! but i dont plan on watching the tw honey n clover. theres a reason i stopped watching taiwanese shows. few yrs back when i was crazy over shinhwa and i got in touch with korean variety e.g. x-man, loveletter... it just dawned upon me that for yrs, ive been watching chinese versions of similar games/show segments yet thinking that singapore is lousy to copy taiwan. truth is, taiwan is lousy to copy korea and japan. maybe someday i'll find out they copied their ideas elsewhere too but for now, i'll just stay away from the getting-ever-so-exasggerated and comments-are-only-limited-to "好可爱“ shows/hosts/guests. their food shows are still good though =]] like i was telling giu, 我要我的肉丸！
*in hokkien
sidenote : i am aware that some korean variety are scripted. prob jap ones too.

I said I'll start being intellectual so here is a great educational video



ive watched this a few yrs back, totally amused. the autistic boy in the book im reading mentioned about the vid and so i looked for it again. i hope you like it. conclusion is : to have great big eyes, start living 300~500m under the sea. I suppose they start expanding through evolution so that you can capture the most amt of light. And the angler fish shows you how to properly skew prawns for bbq. btw most of them look SERIOUSLY HIDEOUS. and those jellies/octopus look pretty much like our so-called aliens.

conclusion : soccer gives you nice legs.

CASE STUDY 1


anw im starting to suspect that jin isnt 176cm[well the other jin definitely isnt. lol sry twinnie] cos toma is definitely taller but hes stated at 173cm. if only im an actress, maybe i'll become 165cm. HAHA.

I must really admit I'm growing old. I can't believe I used to stay up for 5 days 4 nights w/o sleep, maybe just a 2-hr (power) nap. and now, just 1 night and its killing me. 4/1 chalet '08 is erm... turnout was so-so. most ppl left after the BBQ. i hope sir didnt kui1 too much money. i am SO TIRED right now i cant quite describe everything in detail but we mainly had a BBQ, kbox, crazy rounds of bridge, breakfast, crazy 10-20cents mahjong, lunch, some kind of a stroll, sir/the talkingnonstop chii yeh telling his grandpa stories on MOU2 MOU3 REN2 and his crazy ramblings of everyth under the sun as we sat under the sun (erm, lol? im gg nuts) i swear this is one time i seriously laughed till my stomach ached so badly i thought i was going to suffocate/choke on my saliva and die. or maybe my jaws may dislocate. finally, i concussed in the train on the way home.

some parts from this story that im reading...

(backgrnd info : i suppose most autistic kids dont like being touched. ok i'll go read up on my abnormal psych tb n confirm that statement.)
I stepped outside. Father was standing in the corridor. He held up his right hand and spread his fingers out in a fan. I held up my left hand and spread my fingers out in a fan and we made our fingers and thumbs touch each other. We do this because sometimes Father wants to give me a hug, but I do not like hugging people so we do this intead, and it means that he loves me.
(isnt that very sweet?)

It takes me a long time to get used to people I do not know. For example, when there is a new member of staff at school i do not talk to them for weeks. I just watch them until I know that they are safe. Then I ask them questions about themselves, ..., so I get to know them. Then I don't mind if I am in the same room as them and don't have to watch them all the time.

more coming up another day, after i get some proper sleep. the guys are having bachelors' night tonight cos all the girls are gone(except sam). i hope they're not in area G now. HAHAHA.

after a good 12 hours of sleep...

I said, "Do you know who killed Wellington?"
He said, "Who the fuck is Wellington?"
I said, "Mrs. Shears's dog. Mrs. Shears is from number 41."
He said, "Someone killed her dog?"
I said, "With a fork."
He said, "Jesus Christ."
I said, "A garden fork," in case he thought I meant a fork you eat your food with.

I was amused, for some reason.

bro sent his graphic card for repair and my com cant start up, can only rely on the laptop now. may it not go crazy if not both of us are gg to disappear for quite sometime. ohh im so hungry now! half an hr more before i'll be free. good luck chuan min~

after today, i can only confirm that people dont mean what they say. they can tell you all sorts of stuff, like their beliefs or give you advices but they dont practise what they preach. now i learn to not believe in ppl's words so much. haha.

anw, HAPPY 21st APPLE! at least i didnt dread going out so much now. cos i felt really tired and mental block at work. i feel like im turning into a robot.

omg tomorrow night we're gg to stay up and cheer for the runners. yay i love doing sports volunteering work! and some wkend im gg to go for my power walk, challenging the ultimate with jeff-san, lord k n lulu~~~ and some other ppl that erm i dont know hahaha.

now i need some rest.

today a special (uninvited) guest came. HAHAHAHAHA. Hi Sir! I hope you have fun working in nbs. I get 50cents/hr more than you. lols. Nice seeing an old friend. But then hor, today's my injury day. In the morning I ran for the bus and a huge blister on my toe burst. There werent a blister so I suppose after I wore the shoe, the blister started to form and when I ran, it just erupted. FREAKING PAIN!!! its the size of my toenail. After I got home, somehow one of the fingers on my left hand had a cut and then I found a pimple/pus on my left thigh. I think someone made a voodoo doll of me and only pricked on the left side.
the end.

wow #381 entry. im stuck to another song. grrr.
watched sing to the dawn. kind of nice and meaningful. songs are nice too, except for the special appearance of my gd fren mr lizzy. URGH.

you know, ive been saying i want to read my textbooks, the progress is real slow. need to do sth abt tt. HEY WHEN CAN I PLAY ROCKBAND?!?! i need to train my psychomotor! oh, and i feel like eating jap food/steamboat. and i dont know why but i think my articulation and speech of thought have been kind of screwed up recently. maybe its the braces and the retarding brain.

this post is specially dedicated to jin lee, evidence im turning into a fangirl, like ur friend. haha.

W-inds. Can't get back HQ HERE


quite an interesting vid. loves it when he slides to the screen. hahaha. and theres SO MANY keita(s)! clarence use to call him gay or sth. and im the gay lover. i rmb he wrote it all over the autobiography bk. happy belated bro. follow instructions ok.

最近发觉华文退步了很多。好多字都不会写，成语也忘得七七八八。天啊~ 是时候补救补救了。
那天在高岛屋（这有点离谱哈哈）看中了一本书，感觉会很有趣。但文字有如小说式的排列，还真是不习惯。他X的应该会花很多时间才看得懂/读得完。今天在地铁上看到了一位制服帅哥，名字的短写是X X Chua。意思是不告诉你。哈哈。后来和几位同仁去唱K 咯~ 好想呐喊。
现在才了解，不一定会见面的朋友就是真正合得来的人。有些，名义上好像是人生中重要的人，但事实上，有些连轻松的对话都说不上两句。
这样的日子好累。为什么要一直努力地去迎合别人？

只要是看得到海的地方。
正在读NANA中。