i dont have the luck of spotting questions. so how am i going to finish studying for the 10+ chapters due tomorrow morning? i think im going to take some coffee and skip sleeping.
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I think my blog is just a place for me to vent. but today i shall do away with the negativity.
It's been raining everyday.
rainy days are good for songs.
can somebody tell me whats my talent?
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Friday, April 23, 2010 // 9:51:00 PM
my back hurts. i think im not sitting right. shit. one more week to go and my body isnt taking it anymore. and i cant stop sneezing. i have 3 more chapters for tonight. i know its impossible to finish. hate it im such a slow reader. so wee was saying the ministry's thinking of lowering the weightage of chinese in PSLE. this is crap. i think i could read so much faster in chinese. i never knew how i did it, until one day i had to go back and read word by word because it was cheemology to comprehend then i realised... i haven been really reading for years.
by giving in, you're only reinforcing their reluctance to learn the language. one day we're gonna have chinese kids who cant speak chinese. tell me whats funnier?
i've always known sleeping late is bad. now i know, ITS REALLY BAD. the other day i went into the toilet at 4am. CRAP, GUESS WHAT I SAW? totally freaked me out but i really had to clear my high-class bladders else i cant sleep in peace so i was looking down all the time because the thing wouldn't move. DAMN. IT WAS HUGE! urghhhhhhh.
and i couldnt really sleep after that because my mind's full of images. i wish my memory's that good for other things. say watching concerts. then i dont have to buy DVDs. i could just replay them in my mind.
my new hobby: reading forums.
a girl didnt get the logic out of it. so she asked what happens if shes been doing good deeds all her life? ppl still said shes going to hell. in response, someone else said... "It's almost like for example you've been a good citizen throughout ur life and have not done anything illegal, but one fine day you get caught and get jailed for a lifetime for nothing. so u ask the police why you are being jailed up and he replies "because the PM worked hard for the country but you never vote for him"."
great analogy. great singlish/bad english. I think in love, we're all blind.
yabai.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
yeah i shouldnt be online. tell me what am i doing?
its the newspapers' fault. it said "JETSTAR PROMOTION to osaka for only *$198" so i chionged online to check it out. yup, i misread it, its to OSAKA. and its ONE-WAY. in the end its still gonna be expensive unless like what jeff suggested, fly over and be a Japanese so I dont have to pay for the return air ticket. haha. he likes my porn idea more than i like his :P
anyway, i was reading the forum and this funny comment popped out.
SWEAR TO WHOEVER I DID NOT WRITE THAT!
guess we are progressing in a very very small little little way... at least he allows me to fetch him back home now..... I am not sure, but sometimes when we take the cab back to our office... he allows me to "lean" on his shoulder to sleep... he also lets me hold his little finger... then there are times when he allows me to put my head against his back to rest.... I am also able to rest my chin on his shoulder... as in like looking over what he is doing.... very mixed signals... but not putting on much hope... just enjoying it.... lol.
my dear girl, this is NOT progress. examples of progress: (a) HE fetches you home (b) HE leans on your arms to sleep (c) HE holds your little finger (d) HE puts his head against your back to rest (e) HE rest his chin on your shoulder wishing you well
i just thought the person who replied is pretty funny and witty. LOL. DOWN WITH JAP! 3 more to go~!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010 // 8:23:00 PM
i think i've posted this before. its still good. it successfully makes me happy all the time.
06. 素晴らしき世界 作詞: オーノカズナリ/SPIN/櫻井翔 作曲: 松下典由
(Yeah, Kick it in yo, Come on, Sing a Little Song)
*1 This is a Little Song, a Tiny Song この手高く高く今舞い上がる 友を信じる優しい声が 遠く遠く君の元へ届きますよう
Wow 街の灯かり 輪郭描き 道なき道を照らし 今日もまた灰色の空が 開けるはず君となら I wanna say something 2 all my homies 僕はまだ旅の道中 Everything is gonna be all right 色を加え塗り描いて行く"近い将来"
*2, *3, *1 repeat
Credits to www.corichan.com
----------------------- life was perfect the day matsujun sang perfectly well. why isnt that scene included in the DVDs? it was so good everyone in the dome applaused in an instant. it was unanimous.
the next time, im gonna squeeze my way into kokuritsu!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Sunday, April 18, 2010 // 3:45:00 PM
Crazy weather these days, sometimes my windows update says its 35 degrees.
That's crap. and the other day it snowed in Japan. It's already April.
that night, the thunder sounded scary over here.
its the volcanic eruption in iceland, no?
i woke up 2 hours ago and am already feeling sleepy. maybe i should stop sleeping late.
after today i think im done with the proposals and reports :)
am going to take a break off the virtual world. my eyes are seriously going to peel and drop out.
exams' in 4 days!!!!
YOG is still screwed up. they could hire me to reply emails.
ok stop complaining! BE STRONG!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Monday, April 12, 2010 // 11:51:00 PM
If I'm reading you correctly...
I would say...
Listening and Oral done in a day. CHOP CHOP! Oral was ok, made a few mistakes, wouldn't kill. i was in there for... 25 minutes?!
no, i didnt have great stories to tell her. no script either.
being a very nice girl (one who needs loads of good karma to make up for her... badmouthing?), i helped my classmates pass stuff to the sensei. so we started talking about the speech contest.
maybe i'll join. she wants me to :) iya, sonna~~~
we spoke about... the people in front were right. its SO GENERAL. she asked me about psychology but for me, kyoumi nai kara.... guess she caught it, we changed topic after a while.
YAY MY FAVOURITE! LETS TALK ABOUT MUSIC AND BANGUMI!
I became high-spirited and blabbered on and on about Uta no Oniisan.
At least she was laughing along when she heard the weird storyline. LOL.
Then I got my reply from Dear Prof O. and I explained my situation to her.
She describes the situation to me. If I read between the lines, it basically read "Well I guess you didn't get the points like you should because there were enough extra credits at the start of the lectures. Unless of course, people are late" which the last line translates to "I guess you were late for class so TOO BAD. DEH!"
I swear I was early almost everytime. Probably only late once. More than half the time, I was earlier than you, putain! now, isnt the ability to speak another language just simply, amazing?
Then I met MF to study in ADM. Saw XL and girlfriend AGAIN! I think MF n I are fated with the two of them. haha. so we walked to ADM after dinner. its really nice eh. especially when there are not many people around. just this family having a picnic. weird~
Oh forgot to mention how I relieved my stress for the day. Saw a deformed *beep* and a freaking one that crossed my path while walking back to ADM.
So yeah, I was walking in Hall 1, screaming my way through.
As bro said, hi, I'm a 22 year old whos afraid of *beep*.
and cockroaches are NO KICK!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Sunday, April 11, 2010 // 11:48:00 PM
yan ting says:
so my friend and i concluded men r visual animals while women r spiritual
u agree?
bonks says:
men are visual
and women are crazy
indeed.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Saturday, April 10, 2010 // 12:44:00 AM
was looking for a place in japan. tmd their rents are tmd high.
and so i was evil but sometimes i love it when i seethis.
perhaps sometimes its the over-kindness of people that scares us. they did nothing wrong. just too much.
Took too long to see this. so am i stuck now? maybe i should just shape up and be an air stewardess but my height is girigiri and i dont exactly enjoy serving and talking to strangers. OMG!
so the other day i heard that we're writing so many papers now because the faculty's changed. i dont know if its the people or just the system in general, they decided we need to write more papers. THANKS~ love it, totally.
is there a bachelor of science for psych out there? now i truly believe im a science person more than arts. WHERES MY NUMBERS! no stats please. dont exactly fancy all that data.
this holidays im going on a trip. at least 2 weeks. maybe longer. we'll see. if i have enough money i'll visit bao bei'r in shanghai. do i need a ticket to enter the world expo?
gotta study for now. plan later :)
Giu showed me 2 clips by George Carlin. Hes so funny. and he makes sense. I love people with logic.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Wednesday, April 07, 2010 // 10:10:00 PM
1 paper down, 2 presentations done. 3 more papers to go and then we have to start studying for the finals. today we spoke to patty. hes pretty funny. i mean his humour is odd and i can tell hes a little shy. still, hes funny in his own way.
mum says im a bit... since i came back from japan.
answer is FAT.
i shall study in school everyday and skip dinner. yes im crazy but wee cheng hates fat people. HAHAHAHA! ok sorry bro. just kidding.
so i was telling them about my sad story.
i was watching the clips to Arashi's 5 x 10 Anniversary concert on youtube.
its the one i went for. its the one that cost me tonnes.
i know its expensive and ridiculous but i know im going to regret if i didnt go.
plus, i earned my own money, no harm done.
just a tiny heartache. and a very big hole in my wallet that justified for a new one, it cost another 100 sgd. LOL!
the girl did her maths :P
my gawd, i want to go back so bad.
that added on to my depression that has been in place for quite some time already.
and finally i felt like i could really cry this time.
because one of my essay's due today, i gave it some thought, decided i have to finish my work, so i stopped the video, told myself this is not a good time to cry and went on typing.
ISNT THIS VERY SAD? its not about me being sad that's sad but its about anyone whos being sad but unable to let it flow!
WHAT IS THIS?!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Monday, April 05, 2010 // 10:40:00 PM
I'm helping my prof with his research. not exactly "helping", im being paid :) it fits, i need money but i have no time to teach kids anymore.
theres the diary of a wimpy kid going on now, reminds me of my p5 boy. he loves tt series. too bad, he doesnt read properly. i'd rather teach him english than
maths or science. and he has one hell of a BIG EGO. lol.
he loves japan too, esp animes.
rather, only animes.
so i wanted to say, someone emailed me asking
about the expt im conducting. here goes.
"hi, is this a paid study? :)" "hi, its not."
i think im being unfriendly, im sorry. BUT IF THERES MONEY IT WLD BE STATED! and IF THERES MONEY, there wouldnt be time for you to email me to check because all the slots would be gone. anyway, now i dont blame people for not replying my emails. i mean, they dont even know me and im probably asking a question they have answered over a million times.
lets talk about another incident this week. apart from the load of papers i have to write.
Jake is a guy I knew from a camp many years ago. we were volunteers in the same group with his 2 other good friends. pretty funny bunch.
The last time I saw him was after A levels, I passed him my notes. There was a funny incident, Jin knew I was meeting a guy so she kept teasing me about it. In the end I sent the sms to the wrong person (because both their names start with J) and it went something like 'im a paedophile but no, i dont date younger guys. though he is not bad looking.' I would have forgotten about this totally... until he spoke to me on msn a few days ago.
(i should have known...what happens when someone you have lost contact with suddenly says hi. i mean, ive enough friends like that. its always got to do with a thing called FAVOUR. direction matters.) still, being a nice person deep down (ok, you may laugh), i replied.
great, he asked if im free on friday. (no this is NOT a date) wants me to visit his church.
*censor beeps* sensitive word.
sorry people, if you're going to find this offensive, please change channels.
still a very nice person deep down (i think you're still laughing so please continue), i asked for the time. (how else can i give an excuse? alright, kidding. not that evil YET)
i had an appointment in the evening so i rejected politely. NO!!! he said "oh, you can come at 3pm too."
"ok i'll check my schedule and get back to you tomorrow."
truth is: i'll come up with a better excuse and if i rmb, i'll get back to you tomorrow.
the next day, "so what time do you have to be in school?"
"oh sorry, im done with school but theres a friend i have to meet."
"7 pm right? you can go to school, come to paya lebar, then go to town. near eh?"
RULE #1: when you want to make yan ting do something, be nice, enthusiastic but NOT TOO MUCH.
maybe its true, the concept of fan4 jian4. you gotta play hard to get.
i rejected again, nicely and tactfully. NO! IT DOESNT STOP!
conversation goes on, until my level of sensitivity and tactfulness erupts.
"im sorry but i dont fancy churches."
blah blah blah.
look, i know you're leading a good life (or so you perceive) but that doesnt mean i gotta lead the same life to be happy. im pretty good myself now. i get upset sometimes, over little things. i complain a lot, over little things. in comparison to people starving, getting AIDS, rapes, severe accidents, facing death... im doing good, just good enough.
had to be explicit. said im not interested in the religion.
"its a relationship with god."
ok, look, im in my early 20s. soon im going to be of marriageable age.
i think i need a relationship with a man(or woman, if all else fails)
i admit im being totally insensitive and immature right now.
you know, the conversation wouldn't stop.
Rule #2: dont nag me too much.
so finally, i had to ask him to stop TWICE or i may start saying really disrespectful stuff. i know you're being nice, trying to help...since when have i asked someone to visit a temple?!
well yeah, when im joking.
technically, till this point, he hasnt stopped. he has to end off with...
"one day, when you need help, you may not look for blah blah blah. you can look for me. just remember i said that."
yes, very nice of you once again, to bother lending a helping hand.
Rule #3: dont sound like you're actually cursing me. sadly, whether or not im a psychology major, i think too much sometimes.
all i said was "thank you. by the way, i hope that day never comes. cause it will only mean something really bad has happened."
i extend my apologies to all you people out there who are affected. i dont mean to upset you.
but i was really kind of... irritated.
i mean, i had a nightmare about it. slamming on my keyboard.
whatsmore, buddha says dont do anything that upsets your parents (unless they treat u badly).
ok thats bullshit. but theres what i came to realise while growing up.
maybe the next time (i hope theres none), i should promote Arashi or something. LOL~
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now for something heartwarming and sweet :)
ph@1109pmyon go is not yon go without hiko yknw like shit
and they all approve
hahahahaha
its like a tag line from a movie
we are laughing now
glad you people are eating together now! muacks!!! see you soon, i hope :) study hard in school yea! remember!!!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Sunday, April 04, 2010 // 4:04:00 PM
Watching Bloody Monday again. I forgot I was watching it, so I stopped halfway. Does that happen to anyone? I think Im growing old. Then again, why didnt I pick up computer programming? Maybe I'll be a good hacker. I mean, I type so freaking fast, it sounds like I have a problem with the keyboards. Now the organization is facing change.
From the clip, I can conclude that cooperation comes about when theres loyalty and trust. Followers must be willing, then they will give their best. And people usually only unite in times of trouble. How else you think people switch religions halfway throughout their lives? Yea, some people have a guuzen opportunity to learn about something. Still, tts rare.
Reminds me, Ms Khoo did mention her friends(a couple) went for their honeymoon, saw an Indian God on/outside their window. Cant really remember the story but ever since, theyve been Hindus. That, I think is really interesting.
I mean you have no proof till you see "it" right? Unless they're both schizophrenics who fell in love after being together for 10 years in therapy. LOL.
Pretty good isnt it, I'm watching drama and NOT WASTING MY TIME. Because I'm practising my listening skills, analysis skills and I even apply my organizational behaviour knowledge to the context. So proud of myself. Speaking of which, 3 more papers to write. 1 to edit. LETS DO IT, LETS DO IT~ TONIGHT's GONNA BE A GOOD NIGHT.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
HELL WEEK'S OVER! now, lets embrace ourselves and welcome "welcome to a hella out of the month of April" :)
Because I pushed a dateline behind, now i have 4 papers to write, 2 individual, 2 group. have i mentioned i really dont enjoy doing research work? now im working under uncle qiu as research asst but its ok because i dont have to do much thinking about it. im just HELPING. i wont want it as a lifelong career. its like taking it as an elective and taking it as a major. look, theres FYP coming next semester
i need a break badly after this semester. initially i was thinking of going back to japan. now im considering bao bei'r 's suggestion of showing her some love in shanghai. afterall, theres the world expo to see :) i just hope the air tickets wont be that expensive. and time i indulge in some cheap food
im trying to get my prejudice and stereotype off a certain group of people. A FEW certain groups maybe. i'll try. wont know if its going to work. but its for a good cause i believe.
