the new skin is nice but the box is too small. not exactly happy with it.
to my dear readers, i am flying off on a short holiday to Japan (again~) and I will be back mid-August. do look out for new updates meanwhile :) and yes, im exhausting all that ive earned this holidays.
and i just bought a new camera today. with the kind sponsorship of a very good friend. its worth 5 yrs of my bday present. for people who would like to contribute, please contact me via email or facebook. any amount is welcomed. Max: $500. you roughly know how much is that thing. it looks like a ferrari by the way. vroom vroom!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Saturday, July 17, 2010 // 8:02:00 PM
its 9 Aug soon and I'm going to miss it again this year. Sorry, Singapore~ *chuckles*
here's a little dedication to the little HOT babe.
i like Singapore because...
there's durian, mango, char kway teow, hokkien mee, BLACK PEPPER CRAB, tau sar pia... the airline doesnt rock, AT ALL!
its so small, its so convenient.
you find dustbins everywhere.
the old tv shows were classic.
it isnt that expensive afterall.
theres only one very strong government but at least they dont screw up big time.
im ok with...
travelling on the trains.
it being relatively boring thanks to the size.
im not so happy because...
its flooded with non-singapore-bred-singaporeans now.
why do the people make policies like its for our own good when they dont have to squeeze on trains and queue for hours like the rest of us?
the weather is just... HOT AND HUMID.
its so small, you're a HC kid, you're a WOW kid. if you were from XXSS, welcome to world of stereotyping.
its too realistic.
its too stress.
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maybe, im not going to tell you. because im too tired already. and i need a camera. say bye to all the hardwork this holidays. Japan is taking them! *pffs*
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Friday, July 16, 2010 // 6:14:00 PM
im listening to the sad song again. and the rain has ended. great atmosphere~
i just met a guy, the firm's insurance agent. seems like a pretty nice guy. well, i guess that was being genuinely sincere. either way, encounters are just amazing. ive met him before, just once. but i didnt bother registering his face. *dad's competitor* or so i thought. plus he only said hi and bye. but i should have recognised the voice. still, i didnt. he was listening to my colleague's problems. and i was just eavesdropping, sitting right in front of them. its about her beau. then he told his own. his wife is a taiwanese. they met through her sister when he went over for work. she came over to singapore a few times. they could only communicate through the oh-so-expensive telephone and even-crazier-priced-because-there-were-no-budget-airlines air tickets. they were even better than my parents, 3 years. mine only took 1. still, both couples got married. how amazing is that. the same story, the same place, the same way. he just made my day :)
sometimes, people just have too many excuses. its either they are lazy or they are just not willing enough.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Thursday, July 15, 2010 // 10:40:00 AM
I love the music. too good. anyway, i dont know what is she singing about AT ALL. i only catch random words. most of the time, she sings like jay chou. you get what i mean~ lyrics are below :)
You were born, you met me, you were anxious about spring, and you spent autumn. In the process of following after my memories, I recognized for your innocent photograph that I didn't know even seasonal changes after all. Nowadays, the moonlight was only reflected in you who became quiet.
"The world is always unreliable", I sighed like that, but in the same breath I suggested my expectation. On the night I got no response at all, I held one life that became cold calmly again.
You were born in snow, you always laughed, you avoided rain, and you stayed here. It is only your warmth which I felt until a while ago to be reliable.
"What's so sad?", even if you ask me, I grieve about nothing. Maybe the sun only has gone away. Contrary to my dim hope, I saw the very natural chilled setting sun.
Even if I'm left behind alone, it's strange to say "good-bye". Maybe the sun only has gone away. I met you accidentally, I loved you quite naturally, and I saw the setting sun. OK, I'm already smiling.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010 // 1:57:00 PM
i think the heat wave is here. crap! now you can really call this 'SUMMER'.
i'm wearing my... Banana... shirt today :) Sleeves are a tad too long. Wonder if I can alter them in the local shop since I bought it in KL.
an episode on 擦身而过 people usually use this term on... sad love stories. or disappointments. NOT IN MY CASE :)
the other day i went to the 24 hr NTUC with mum. on the way out, i saw somebody. OMG, my heart skipped a beat. ok, it didnt really. initially, i didnt register the face. i just knew it was someone ive seen before. suddenly, it was 'CRAP! did he see me?'
thanks to my makeover. alright not exactly. but the braces and the hair did help i guess. and im way too short n hes way too tall. hes nobody, just a student of mine from long ago who kept asking me out. whatever the reason, i do not want to know. hes just plain scary. in his own way.
two episodes of... weird feelings you know how people say "you will die the day you meet the person who looks like you"?i was walking to the bus stop, it was a long corridor. at the other end, theres this girl walking in my direction, crap, its me. the feeling was unexplainable. its as if your soul's floating near the ceiling and you're looking at yourself from afar. i guess thats how it feels like when you're dead. my heart was pounding. i didnt know what to do. i didnt feel like myself. i didnt feel human. i thought thats it, this is crazy. when we were eventually closer to each other, i realised that wasnt me. she was tan too, not too skinny too, has this pink top the same shade as i did, shorts are usually similar so im not blaming it, and the bag. the same colour as mine. we even have the same hairstyle. i was in a different outfit that day, but all the things she wore, i had sth similar.
today, on the way to work, i saw this person's backview. crap, so alike. i knew its impossible for him to be here but its the same style too. black jacket with jeans, the sling bag, the hair. i have to see the face so i walked on till i caught a glimpse of the sideview. no, different face, walk on.
despite all my eveil thoughts and dark humour/harsh words/jokes/but truthful words, most of the time i treat people pretty well. especially those im not so close with. because... i dont want to offend you. its too troublesome. i dont like arguments. thats how it is, i smile, i nod, i say yes, i give a little chuckle at everything you say. things go easier this way. maybe thats why some people dont get why im suddenly so harsh to them. thats only because, we're closer now. *however, there ARE exceptions. sometimes, i really mean to criticise you. but because of my usual goody-two-shoes mannerism, some idiots just dont get it. today, i lost it. she kept telling me stuff. i was ok listening. im always listening. if im tired, i switch off but i still pretend to be listening. its the same, i smile, i nod, i give a soft response. i let you know im there but im shutting off. initially, we were fine. recently, she started becoming suspecting. she has to add things like 'i hope you know i'm only telling you this because i trust you (enough).' and then it evolved to 'please dont tell xxx' to 'dont tell xxx. you didnt see/hear anything. im telling you because i trust you.' to the final one that led to my eruption 'dont tell xxx what i've told you, ya?'
you sense the trust?
ive never said anything. its going to bring too much tension and i dont like it. it doesnt benefit me. unless im given 10k per se. then thats a whole new different story.
人間関係。おもしろいけど。。。めんどくさいの方がいいかな？なぜ人々は素直になれないの？
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Saturday, July 10, 2010 // 7:50:00 PM
i dont understand. i look at her. the more i dont understand. people are weird. its even weirder how people stay together. some people are such bitches. and some people are so inconsiderate. some people just have low EQ. i think i can be irritating too.
i spent tonnes in KL. the hotel was great. the room was huge. i cant rmb the last time ive stayed in such a nice hotel. this is why it is good to be rich. tonnes tired. im going to nap soon. 3rd placing tonight!
n if u're not going to talk to him, no pt seeing him again u know
we call this "INSIGHT LEARNING" in psychology. i should know better.
STARS WARS this morning was... soso. i have to learn to say NO! crap. so i didnt get forensics. i'll try to appeal. i need some crap reason. i like work these days, im blasting my ipod. christina is very receptive of japanese songs. heehee~ gonna do dinner myself tonight. im going to take many apples.
i feel like betting on world cup. but i havent worked out a good deal yet. maybe i should consult sir. or i should use the next 4 yrs to understand gambling and odds. i feel like smoking too. not really want to smoke but i wonder how is it like. but my lungs are bad. i'll think about it further.
oh, did i say i was drinking red wine at work? 20 minutes tonight!
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now im looking forward to the KL trip. because i didnt get forensics and in the toilet just now, guess who i met?! yes, my archenemy! that digusting blob of rubber-like flesh fumble it way up to the windows because it was hiding behind the sink when i was using it. f***! this thing really deserves vulgarities. glad i didnt break boss' wine glass. imagine if i did. he wont fire me but i probably will have to pay. so yes, something good is about to happen. i know it.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Tuesday, July 06, 2010 // 3:07:00 PM
days you just want to be alone. i came to work fine. slowly, i grew quieter. suddenly, im just lethargic. and then, i didnt want to talk anymore. i was suppose to have lunch alone. i dreaded the idea. i was looking for someone to dine with me. eventually, i decided i just want to sit in a quiet corner and nuar. plan failed. we had swensens 1-for-1 deal. pretty good :) now im a bit happier. and then theres dinner later. but im too full. crap. and oh yes, what happened to 5kg? apple diet tomorrow, please dont stop me!
do you know what i just did? its a series of stalking just to re-affirm my little ego. the "away" and the "busy". you know it better than anyone else. just wake up already. its not going to happen. i should start writing a script. it might be a hit. i mean, we all love these dramas that wrench our poor hearts.
by the way, im loving my new cardigan lots. except for the stupid ribbon behind that looks like its going to be torn soon.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Sunday, July 04, 2010 // 2:51:00 AM
i just realise soccer is a great game. teaches you many lessons in life.
1. men on the field are like men in bed. they do something wrong in either/both, they'll just raise both hands immediately and shake their heads.
2. men are very aggressive, especially when their pride and/or ego are at stake.
3. it is often that pride and/or ego that caused mistakes.
4. YOUR perspective ≠ THEIR perspective. the players dont get a bird's eye view of the field so stop blaming them for not seeing their teammate/opponent whos open.
5. sometimes you pick the wrong guy, shit just happens.
6. no hopes, no disappointments.
thats all for now. im sleeping.
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BAYA II - stop distracting me from watching gays e.g. MatsuJun! p.s. guess what is he doing? (ans below)
ans: he was reading a story that starts with "昔、昔、浦島（うらしま）太郎（たろう）が海に行くと。。。” your favourite after つる！
i love my friends. and our matching status on skype. so innovative. its better than facebook. best part, we BARELY SPEAK TO EACH OTHER! its like a silent good relationship. hahaha. love you, darling #5827459!
and PH and I are dead funny.
[7:43:42 PM] ph: mirika was surprised
ansd i let her saw some korean boybands
she said its more manly
we watched truth
it was too gay for us
we kept laughing on the train
[7:44:07 PM] yan ting/hiko: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
[7:44:09 PM] ph: hahahahaha
yeah
and she hates ohno
she ssaid hes too ugly
hahahaha
the most ok is kazu and sho
[7:45:42 PM] yan ting/hiko: WAT ABT AIBA?!
aiba is so cute. she has to watch aiba on tv
[7:45:54 PM] ph: hahaha i dont wanna hurt your feelings
[7:46:01 PM] yan ting/hiko: damn u!
HAHA!
[7:46:04 PM] ph: : D : D
[7:46:09 PM] yan ting/hiko: i think our conversations r damn funny
[7:46:15 PM] ph: LOLOLOLOL
hahahhaa
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[7:47:14 PM] yan ting/hiko: oh?! where is he?
[7:47:18 PM] ph: on my door
[7:47:18 PM] ph: shos picture
[7:47:18 PM] ph: hahahahahahaha
[7:47:18 PM] ph: LOLOLOLOLOL
[7:49:17 PM] yan ting/hiko: omg i want to marry a nice guy
[7:49:20 PM] yan ting/hiko: the couple in the movie is so nice
[7:49:29 PM] yan ting/hiko: (ok its matsuju n karina. now i want to marry him)
[7:49:48 PM] ph: wooow
[7:49:54 PM] ph: i like karina
[7:49:54 PM] yan ting/hiko: HAHAHA NOW HES READING THE URASHIMA TAROU story
[7:50:01 PM] ph: WTF
[7:50:51 PM] yan ting/hiko: (and wake up from your dream about sho. but if i marry aiba, i'll make him tell sho)
[7:51:04 PM] ph: WTH. damn you
[7:51:08 PM] ph: delusional woman
[7:51:09 PM] ph: hahahahahaha
[7:51:22 PM] ph: you know
[7:51:29 PM] ph: im sorry to say this
[7:51:37 PM] ph: but can i criticize XXX
[7:51:39 PM] yan ting/hiko: yes u can
[7:51:41 PM] yan ting/hiko: please do
[7:51:51 PM] yan ting/hiko: i criticise them myself. and i think im half taiwanese so im half not as bad :P
[7:51:56 PM] ph: WTF
sorry, im egoistic :)
::: || M e L a N i e * メイ || ::: says:
thzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
GF
chineseeee
haha
kowai
AIBA
haha
kowakunai yo
i like chinese
but i admit its difficult
::: || M e L a N i e * メイ || ::: says:
thai is more difficult mayv
mayb
AIBA
yeah i think so
it looks like scribbles to me
::: || M e L a N i e * メイ || ::: says:
haha
ฮิโกะ
AIBA
haha nani sore?
55!
oh, write my name! "yan ting"
イェン ティン
::: || M e L a N i e * メイ || ::: says:
ur name
its hilo
AIBA
but its TING not TIN
hahahaha its HIKO!
NOT HILO!
::: || M e L a N i e * メイ || ::: says:
ย่าน ถิง
AIBA
wow~
::: || M e L a N i e * メイ || ::: says:
hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
im laughin now
hilo
today i sat in for the japanese speech contest. well, its quite disappointing. im not saying im excellent but i know im better than some of those out there. still, for their courage and efforts, i have nothing else to say. windriani did pretty well!! and theres this girl who dressed up as a maid. eventually, i was introduced to her. and then i was introduced to more people. for once, we put aside all differences and spoke a lot. this china girl and i. she speaks so well, i thought she was japanese. until she told me her chinese name. well, we all have a chinese name but you know, the way they say it? its just different. but we're the same so we talked a lot. and then i sneaked away to do some shopping. MANGO SALE! i bought a shirt, a cardigan and a pair of sandals. bombed a hundred bucks. im crazy.
