first day of school is, NO GOOD. especially when im with liting and we're just both emo-ing. haha.
not exactly. we were more like going crazy and laughing at every single thing that isnt actually funny. we're pathetic.
i hope tomorrow's better. and at least i dont have to go to work. am so glad the two upcoming saturdays are holidays, somehow :)
told you im blessed!
anyway, CBOX/the tag is alive so leave a note if you'd fancy to.
great song, or rather, BAD song. VERY BAD. you can learn korean if you want! theres lyrics, pronounciations and translations!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Saturday, August 28, 2010 // 11:38:00 PM
badmouthbadmouthbadmouthbadmouth, DO NOT.
its amazing the way i see resemblance in people. this guy, hes in his 30s. very meticulous(im being tactful here). very friendly and talks a lot. very serious about his work.
DOES ANYONE REMEMBER MR TAN? the old man from the library?
i suspect they are father and son. but they dont have the same surname so now im suspecting this guy has been adopted. 最低な人間、私。。。but they are TOO MUCH ALIKE. just that junior is less irritating. but everytime im about to get irritated, i stop myself because its like deja vu. he reminds me of someone else. scaringly.
today i saw myself in my dad. the way we are proud. the way we think we are right. and then i realise i have to do some reflections. and then i thought of you. maybe this is right for us. because you are just like him. too obsessed with this thing called faith. or maybe its not faith we're talking about but just some odd admiration for a particular figure. it is weird because i think ive never felt this way for someone. or maybe i did, as a kid. when i truly believed in myths. but i could never bring myself to believe this much in a human being. to want to serve. maybe im lacking something. bottom line is... maybe i wont be able to live with you eventually. arent we just glad?
and sometimes, you know how people feel inferior and ostracised when they are just not PART OF THE TEAM? i felt it. its only my first week. but thanks to alittletoostraightforwardme now, i probably pissed the two girls. now i have to brush up my/the japanese. literally. but this time im stronger. i didnt feel inferior. just the latter. you can feel it. the way people dont look you in the eye. the way they dont smile at you genuinely. i never knew how i knew it. now i do, i take in the signs. thanks to psychology, maybe~ but well, it really doesnt have to take a psych textbook to tell you if someone doesnt like you.
by the way, i really dont fancy the way you speak english. its WEIRD. the way you do your Rs, i think you speak mandarin at home. not discriminating chinese. i speak mandarin at home too. maybe im just more talented than you are. HAHA! what a loser i am, laughing at you behind your back. and i didnt like the way you gave that fake smile. that dude's a visitor! whats with all these shit you guys have been teaching me?
when a group of people praise a WEIRD guy, you'd realise its because they are ALL WEIRD.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Friday, August 27, 2010 // 4:46:00 PM
and so i thought after all this time of crazy working, i would have mastered the art of office politics. apparently, no. time i turn skeptical again. people dont mean what they say. the more likely they are to tell you they are nice, the more likely they're not SO nice. sometimes people tell you the truth, tactfully. for example, "we are quite easy-going"
keyword is not easy-going. keyword is QUITE. that means, as long as you dont do anything to piss us off, we are easy-going. should have known...
apparently, psychology doesnt teach you things like this so that was why i was caught off guard. and then i said stupid things. which obviously pissed people off.
still, we have to learn to be strong so we shall not back down. this time im not going to run away. im embarking on journey to change, impress, and 拍马屁. yes, that implies one of you or all of you are gonna be horses now :)
see you, 马脸！FIGHT!
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Thursday, August 26, 2010 // 12:15:00 PM
writing is a good form of therapy, or so it has been.
im just sitting here in the room now. waiting for a call. well actually i dont want anyone to call. HAHA! its only my 2nd day but already my last. too much ponning. im sorry~
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Writing therapy, the other segment. this is starting to feel like crap. i hope i find an organization that suits my working style and personality after i graduate. OH PRAISE THE LORD~
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Monday, August 23, 2010 // 1:26:00 AM
Fracture is good. I watched it again.
Yesterday I watched Inglorious Basterds. Very interesting, I like the way its weird.
Today I watched Night of the Museum 2.
This is holiday, isnt it? :)
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010 // 12:51:00 AM
I think secretaries/personal assistants shouldn't have an issue with basic English. Even if your boss and you wont commute in English but you are working with English. whatever I'm saying. and I simply hate it when people can't spell my name when it is PRINTED THERE FOR YOU! and how many times are you going to make the same mistake? my name is not YANG ting, its YAN ting! im not a sheeeeeeeeeeeeep!
anyway, zing does it again. makes it into my list of quotes.
"well, xxx people are like that." "hes erm, by blood." "by blood gay? my god
then is he straight?"
lols bao bei'r. thats so cute.
and ive watched inception. its really no good when people tell you something's really good. it brings everything down. still, its not bad.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010 // 8:33:00 AM
today I woke up diligently at 5.30. I got out of the house before 6. I reached school at 6.15.
"Sorry mdm, your pass is invalid."
"How would you like to step aside and let me explain to you why."
No, I don't need you to explain to me why. Just tell me how to get in.
"You have to wait for the registration counter to open. Or you can call a friend from inside to come escort you in."
Sorry I have no friends inside. I joined this alone, with far too much passion to eff-ing wake up at this ungodly hour on an alarm clock.
At age 21, I decided to play truancy for the first time. CRAP.
Endless memories,
too many to count.
Sunday, August 15, 2010 // 4:09:00 PM
hi, im home.
the bed is the best. with my pillow and bolster. and my thick blanket.
how the hell did i ever get so many clothes? my wardrobe is over-flowing.
my YOG duties start on tuesday. technically, its last week but they are stupid. i told them im overseas and they still went ahead with putting me on those dates. so ive missed 2 days. oh well.
the flight was bumpy. its Delta.
the food was pretty good though. except for the peas.
and I watched 2 films - UP and Valentines' Day.
UP was really good. I've never cried so much for an animation.
Carl and Ellie :) Sweet~
1 weeks' rest and internship starts and i need a job.
im happy to be home. for some reason.
but im going to miss you for a while. can i?
p.s. hows the new skin? i just cant put in the tagboard because it screws up everything else.
