memories.

Sunday, October 31, 2010 // 11:28:00 PM

1日1谚语：水能载舟，亦/也能覆舟(shui neng zai4 zhou1, yi4/ye neng fu4 zhou1)
variations to the 5th word. i usually use the latter but i think it was originally the former.
literal. the water that can sail ur vessel, can also capsize it.

interesting stuff
a translation from a china website: The water that bears the boat is the same that swallows it up. [bears and swallows... hmmm... whos hungry now?]
this is better, i didnt know it either: 简称“载舟覆舟”

basically it means, things/events can be useful OR NOT, depending on how you use/manipulate it. or like PH cleverly adds '2 sides of the blade'. indeed indeed.

this 1日1__ thing is a very good idea. now im feeling intellectual :) feeds my ego!

by the way, i just watched 2012 on HBO. how apt and tied in with my word of the day, TSUNAMI! and their "noah's arks" well... i just want to say, if im going to die submerged in water, i hope its not DROWNING. i hope i've already taken enough sleeping pills to keep myself asleep till i lose my last breath.

Endless memories,
too many to count.

Saturday, October 30, 2010 // 11:12:00 PM

just the other day i came to realise, as much as my english is getting worse and my japanese isn't becoming fantastic, my mandarin is becoming not so good too (because its still good you see. i cant say im bad right? lols. ALERT: ego on the move)
so ive decided i better start refilling my 墨水, hence i came up with a good idea. im going to benefit the people who read my blog/tweets/fb. i shall do a 1日1__. it can be proverbs, idioms... whatever. anything that's mandarin. YAY-HEY! say "all hail china!" sadly, its a fact we all have to face. no matter which corner of the earth you're in, they're there *affirmative*

1日1谚语：男女授受不亲 (nan nv shou4 shou4 bu qin)
to help you assess yourself: if u cant read the words w/o the tones stated, ur chinese is REALLY BAD. but note, it only applies to native speakers

literal. man woman give receive no close = intimacy is frowned upon between men and women (unless married)
but that's in the case of ancient society so it doesn't really apply now but still, as much as the different genders can be spiritually close these days, physical intimacy is still not the norm.

Endless memories,
too many to count.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010 // 12:54:00 AM

i said something amazing! decided i shall copy it down since im forgetting what ive said recently. is that a sign of depression?

"couples always like tt one
u meet someone first then its tt someone who intro u to ur right one"

well, no, actually i haven been depressed lately. im kinda enjoying life. thumbs up!

CHOKES says:

could be cos bleeding

see bleed finish alr will ok not

YAWNS says:

hahahaha

how bt u just say 'could be cos stinking'

lols

CHOKES says:

could be cos stinking

HAHAHAHA

reason why i love this man.

Endless memories,
too many to count.

Sunday, October 24, 2010 // 2:06:00 AM

i didnt use to know how people argue over the smallest thing.
now i do.

and now i know why people say "you taught me to..."

well, its true.

Endless memories,
too many to count.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010 // 1:57:00 AM

Things I have to do
1. Finish Workplace Script (finishing tonight)
2. Finish Workplace Powerpoint (finishing tomorrow)
3. Eprime (finishing tomorrow and send to Patterson and return him the key by tomorrow evening)
4. Start on Trauma Report (the outline by Friday)
5. Study Japanese and Shukudai (by Friday)
6. Find 2 articles for Memory presentation (by tomorrow noon)

so for tomorrow, im gonna do 6, 3, 2 :)

I hope I stay disciplined!
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Today I went to the 24-hour supermarket to get some milk(this is random). On the way, I gave some thought about my future. Somehow I just had this feeling, like I'm very sure, that I'm not going to get a desk-bound 9-to-5 job. Somehow I just felt like I'm not born to do these things. By these, it kind of implies "mundane". Even sitting at the table researching on finance and trading is included. AM I CRAZY?

But I thought if I were to be sitting there, calling up people about ForEx, that wouldn't be mundane. I THINK I MUST BE CRAZY.

And then the better thoughts came about: how did i even come up with so much support for what should my career be?

And then I realised its all thanks to Education. It's not about having education that gave me expectations (as it is said in the Workplace & Psychology Today textbook) but more like the education that made me think I'm smart. It makes me think that my supporting reasons are REAL GOOD~ and somehow, it gave me all the confidence I need to persuade MYSELF. How amazing is that? There, self-efficacy for you!

But seriously, maybe I'm good for nothing. maybe I'm just not so capable... but somehow, I feel that I am.

this is crap.

Endless memories,
too many to count.

Thursday, October 14, 2010 // 11:45:00 AM

why do i always put myself in unfavourable situations?

i hate my job.

well the job is fine. the people arent so. are my social relationships going downhill?
i mean just look at JCC, i totally love it there initially but the people are just... and this time too.
maybe its just me.

the song tears my heart.

Endless memories,
too many to count.

Sunday, October 10, 2010 // 5:17:00 PM

I want to sing this song in a pub. That's if I even get to sing in a pub. HAHA!

아파

(CL)
내가 준 신발을 신고 그녀와 길을 걷고
아무렇지 않게 그녀와 kiss하고
내가 준 향술 뿌리고 그녀를 품에 안고
나와 했던 그 약속 또 다시 하겠죠

(Minzy)
우린 이미 늦었나 봐요. 우리 사랑 끝난 건가요
아무 말이라도 좀 내게 해줘요 Oh-
우리 정말 사랑했잖아 되돌릴 순 없는 건가요

(Dara)
오늘밤 나만이 아파요

(Bom)
변했니 네 맘 속에 이제 난 더 이상 없는 거니
난 널- 널 생각하면 너무 아파 아파 아-파-

(Minzy)
아무것도 아니란 듯 내 눈물 바라보고
태연하게 말을 또 이어가고

(CL)
아니란 말 못하겠다고 그 어떤 미련도
후회도 전혀 없다고 잔인하게 말했죠

(Bom)
우린 이미 늦은 건가요 우리 사랑 끝난 건가요
거짓말이라도 좀 아니라고 해줘요-
이젠 더 잘할 수 있는데
다시 만날 수는 없지만

(Dara)
오늘 밤 나만이 아파요

(CL)
변했니 네 맘 속에 이제 난 더 이상 없는 거니
난 널- 널 생각하면 너무 아파 아파 아-파-

(Minzy)
더 이상 예전의 네가 아니야

(CL)
내가 사랑한 너와 지금의 네가 너무도 달라서

(Dara)
그저 멍하니 멀어지는 널 바라보고만 서서 울었어

(Bom)
No way, I can`t recognize
you`re not mine anymore

(Dara)
변해야 했니 돌아올 순 없니
꼭 변해야 했니 돌아와줄 순 없니
변해야 했니 돌아올 순 없니
왜 변해야 하니 계속 사랑할 순 없니

(Bom)
Oh 끝인 거니 네 맘 속에
이제 난 더 이상 없는 거니
난 널- 널 생각하면

(Minzy)
너무 아파 아파 아-파-
아파 아-파-

(CL)
아파 아-파-

// Translation

[CL] You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her
As if it were nothing, you kiss her
You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her
You’ll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

[Minzy] It seems that we’re already too late
Has our love already ended
Please at least say anything to me
We truly loved each other, can’t turn back?

[Dara] I’m the only one hurting tonight

[Bom] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You look at my tears as if it were nothing
You continue to talk calmly again
[CL] You told me cruely that you couldn’t deny
That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

[Bom] Are we already too late? Is our love over?
Even if it’s a lie, please tell me it isn’t so
I can do better now, though we can’t meet again

[Dara] I’m the only one in pain tonight

[CL] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You’re no longer your old self
[CL] Because the you I loved
And the you now are so different
[Dara] Are you that shocked?
I just stood and cried
Watching you become further away
[Bom] No way, I can’t recognize
You’re not mine anymore

[Dara] Did you have to change?
Can’t you come back?
Did you really have to change?
Can’t you come back?

Did you have to change?
Can’t you come back?
Why did you have to change?
Can’t you keep loving me?

[Bom] Oh, is this the end?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
[Minzy] It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] It hurts, it hurts
[CL] It hurts, it hurts

Translated by: kimchi hana @ ygladies.com

Endless memories,
too many to count.

Wednesday, October 06, 2010 // 10:01:00 PM

ヒサシブリだよね。
最近あまりゲンキにできない。
年末の日本語能力試験申し込んだ。
勉強しかいけないよね。
ゆうべってさ、ユメ見たよ。
アンタがいた夢。現実と見分けなかった。
電話にヒサシブリのコエ。突然に、顔もでてきた。
夢に悲しいはなかった。なんか、普通のカイワだった。

これから、どうだろう？

Endless memories,
too many to count.