and i just want to clarify when i said "when i listened to utada hikaru's english songs, american music is close to pathetic"
i didnt mean that utada's eng songs are awesome. in fact, they are NOT. they are so... urgh, typical.

if you dont get what i mean? here's what i say awesome to.


and heres why i think not.


i read a comment below, someone said "if i wasnt looking at the video, i would have thought it was a black singing" he/she's so damn right. not saying blacks are pathetic but they sing really well but, the way the song was put together was just like... arent there already at least a few hundred songs that sound like that?

先生が「mock test 2の listening...」と言ってたけど。ただ「ニノ」と聞いた (￣^￣)ゞ
So I figured I should check her profile.

I'm about to go crazy, the schedule is crazy.

"Naise." a word you use when you feel naise~

here to share a bit about myself
'musicians' i like: 嵐 - people i admire despite their gay presentation because i am able to overlook their gay disposition and appreciate their music and lyrics. technically, not THEIR music/lyrics because they barely wrote half of it but you get what i mean.

i thought this was awesome
(but like i said, you gotta OVERLOOK. i suggest you play it and quickly toggle to another screen and just listen to the music)


and i just found something awesome to show that though they arent the best singers around, they are pretty damn good.

tts them


tts not


then again, maybe they have more money for better effects. i just want to say, i love the way different things are put together and its $%*&$*%&*#$ messy but it still sounds great (cf. Tokyo Jihen/東京事変, they do it best e.g. Shurabu/修羅場）

Now I sound like a music guru myself. No, I'm not. I can barely sightread a score, less say play the piano with both hands. and if only there's a way we could write music in words. Maybe some savants can. Wouldn't that be beautiful?

Word of the day: 与生俱来(yu3 sheng1 ju3 lai2)
literal. With birth, it comes.

Usually used on gifts, things you're born in. commonly used on positive aspects. (i mean, who really wants to say their slanted eyes are given to them at birth? like, hello, not many people really have the courage to love themselves so much. of course im not saying its a bad thing but its just an example and features, like gestalt psychology, the whole is greater than the sum of its parts)

someone 不要脸 can say “我的美貌是与生俱来的。”="my beauty is natural."
very bad translation but... urgh, my english proficiency just isnt up to it.
by the way, 不要脸 = dont want your face/shameless

TOO BUSY! But we still need time for our mother tongue :)
Anyway, people have been asking why did I cut my hair when my hair was so long?
Ok, now the question sounds stupid when its written down because it sounds just like 'Why did you eat when your stomach was so empty?' lols.

THIS IS SO FUNNY!

明日は能力試験のモックテストだから、今日は少しでも勉強しようと思うんです。
日本語わからない友達には申し訳ないんですけど、まあ、それでも謝りわかるわけがないでしょう。私のせいです。

a kid's upbringing is indeed very important. regardless of the attachment style the child has, if the mother is going to be talking about financial issues all the time, and somehow, only the younger, female kid(maybe because she thinks the little girl could identify with her and help her out), the little girl's gonna turn out like... yours truly :)

this is the show i cried tonnes to!

no inspirations for word of the day~

care if i show off a little?
so cousin's got 3rd in class/cohort recently(in sec sch) and grandma decides to reward her a little. $300. grandpa has no choice but to fork out $300 too. well, to be fair u see. and so, great mum hears about it and mentions,'well, then to be fair, yan ting's got into top 3 a few times too.' so grandpa says,'ok, how many times?' parents can't remember and so one fine evening, dad comes home asking me. we calculated, 5 times.

today is probably the WORST day of my life. "why is this so?"

小时了了，大未必佳。(xiao shi liao3 liao3, da wei4 bi4 jia1)

as lao jie puts it, this is poison. still, irresistible.



am very glad workplace presentation is over! left with memory and clinical. and i haven started on a single report! YAY-HEY! am going to fix my face now, shall think of a "word of the day" later.

Here's a short summary to my uni life.
In year 1, I was afraid of not being termed "popular", so after much hesitation(because I'm still ultimately a shy girl at heart), I finally submitted my application for school camp. Wasn't selected lucky enough to be picked via balloting.
In year 2, I joined the school camp as a senior though I have ABSOLUTE ZERO 関係 with them, hoping I would get more friends to say hi to in school.
In year 3, I joined the camp as a OGL just to show my enthusiasm for school activities in my resume. this is the part we all have but am afraid to admit.
In year 4, I finally learnt to face myself truthfully and I now dare say CHEERS ARE LAME. especially those with downright 低级 phrases/soundalike*. n your photos with your gang look lovely and pretty damn cool on facebook, especially when you go to clubs. but you, just like many others and any other gang, you only thrive in a party. you can't stand alone.
*new term. I coined it

DISCLAIMER: the abovementioned should not be generalised as we all know those are just stereotypes (of the different sorts of people) and i must say, there are some who are genuinely amiable, fun, loves the crowd, yet independent and strong. but they are few.

*continues falling into my 无底深渊*

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１日１言葉に続きます！
今日は特別に行こうと思うので、二つにしようか？

人不为己，天诛地灭(ren bu wei ji3, tian zhu1 di mie4)
literal. the person does not do for himself(lets me sexist yea?), the sky will kill and the earth will destroy you (can i laugh at myself now?)

basically, it means
Every man for himself, and the devil takes the hindmost. but my english sucks so i dont know what does the 2nd line means.
IN REALLY SIMPLE WORDS: BE SELFISH.
and that is what im trying to master. haha. but a little check online and there's our
something i didn't know either! (maybe i shd incorporate this into my fixed segment) “人不为己，天诛地灭”是自私自利者为自己辩护的托词，这句话可能在清代以后才流行起来，殊不知它最早的出处原意却是“人若为己，天诛地灭”。 so the original sentence was "人若为己" instead. SIMPLE WORDS: SERVE THE COMMUNITY.

my gawd... i failed in life.

^诛zhū (v.): to kill

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PART II
I said it, 无底深渊 (wu di3 shen1 yuan1) = Abyss
SIMPLE!

you can use it metaphorically, like how i explain the intensity of my bad karma that i'm falling in to this abyss.

ok im sleepy. that's all.