and i figured i was wrong. being involved in my life for about 20% of the time and you're judging me, i too, shouldn't be judging you because i think im only involved in your life 5% of the time.

and to mr $%^#$%&, hi, im back to haunt. but i must admit my words and thoughts have been, not childish (because there are too evil for a child [and that is not appropriate by social norms] but read Lord of the Flies if you have doubts on the extent of evilness children engage in) but, immature. they are still on-going but getting lesser.

ms -, i have nothing much to say :) i still think you deserve it. hiak hiak hiak.


heard this on the radio in the car. i think a guy did a cover. and then i recognised it as sth ive heard before so i did a search.

she is one woman who doesn't sing fantastic but somehow her songs are fine~
i mean... usually this sort of 调调 might just kill my ears. rather, they'd have killed my soul before killing my ears.

and so i was doing a 6 laps yesterday. and as i am always weird and random, i had my usual random thoughts. i dont want to do nothing everyday. as much as ive resolved the debate of whether women should stay at home or go out working (on that, my stand is that, there's nothing wrong being a housewife. its quite a luxury.), i'd very much like to find a job that i love. love so bad that i can work late and still want to get up early to finish it.

am i crazy?

今日から、ニホンゴで書きましょうか？
なんかさ。。。やっぱり今のジブンはもっとスナオにしてるけど、いやが気がするトモダチもいるんだ。
でも、実は。。短気って。。。いつも変わってねぇじゃん？ただ前のジブンが。。。ま、人と合わせるために。。。いつも、ガンバってしてたんだ。
前は本当にいい人をなりたかったけど、人にやさしくしても、同じヤサシサを返す一人がスクナイ。
ここまで、グーグルトランスレータはどう？ただしく説明してる？(笑)
やっぱオマエ様はね、キモッ。

who's in for something sick?
'as you were telling your story,
I pictured drilling your head.
at the end of it, we both smiled.
what a lovely little story :)'

if i could, i would actually very much want to study chinese or linguistics. whats all those techniques and jargons... 拟人、伏笔、dangling modifiers etc.

btw, et cetera is pronounced eh-seh-teh-ha. so cool right?

"desperation is such a scary thing. the blank lowers your standards and drive you to look for anything, regardless of quality, to fill in the emptiness for quantity. and you would think you're doing your best and surprisingly, it makes you satisfied. but not until you pause, think about it, then realise... that wasnt what you were looking for.

just a whole load of rubbish for a stand-in. or you could very well just live with that, out of desperation. i dont settle for Bs.

- 122 at 6:20"

let's do an intellectual entry.

"The results showed that in contrast to Japanese students who showed strong unrealistic pessimism bias, Korean Ss showed unrealistic optimism bias. Though their independent construal of self was weaker than their interdependent construal of self, it was considerably stronger than the Japanese independent construal of self. The findings suggest that pessimism bias of the Japanese is not due to the strong interdependent view of self but to the weak independent view of self, and that the Koreans showed optimism bias because they have strong independent construal of self as well as strong interdependent construal of self consistent with characteristics of Eastern cultures."

ABSTRACT-Inumiya, Y., Choi, I., Yoon, D., Seo, D., & Han, S. (1999). The relationship between unrealistic optimism and independent–interdependent construals of self in Korean culture. Korean Journal of Social & Personality Psychology, 13(1), 183-201.

LOL.

"Writers as diverse as Sophocles and Nietzsche argued that optimism prolongs human
suffering: It is better to face the hard facts of reality."

"Freud proposed that optimism is part of human nature but only as a derivative of the conflict between instincts and socialization. He thought some individuals--Freud mentioned the educated and in particular neurologists--did not need the illusion of optimism, although the masses were best left with their "neurosis" intact and the belief that God was a benevolent father who would shepherd them through life and beyond. Only with this belief and its associated fear that God would retaliate against them if they transgressed would people be law-abiding. According to Freud,
a rational prohibition against murder is not compelling to the masses. It is more persuasive to assert that the prohibition comes directly from God."

"In free recall, people produce positive memories sooner than negative ones. Most people evaluate themselves positively, and in particular more positively than they evaluate others. Apparently, in our minds, we are all children of Lake Wobegon, all of whom are above average."

"Everyone engages in an ongoing process of fabricating and revising his or her own personal history. The story each of us tells about ourselves is necessarily egocentric:Each of us is the central figure in our own narratives. Each of us takes credit for good events and eschews responsibility for bad events. Each of us resists changes in how we think. In sum, the ego maintains itself in the most self-flattering way possible, and it has at its disposal all of the psychological mechanisms documented by Matlin and Stang (1978)."

"Religion can provide some answers. Indeed, Tiger (1979) argued that religions arose at least in part to tap the biologically given need of people to be optimistic. Religious thought lends itself particularly well to big optimism because of its certainty. Tiger observed, much as Freud (1928) did decades earlier, that religion is more amenable to optimism than is science, which is explicitly tentative and probabilistic in its pronouncements."

The Future of Optimism, Peterson (2000).

ok so much for now. update later

http://hubpages.com/hub/6-Steps-to-a-More-Positive-You

Britney's new song.
http://www.z100.com/cc-common/news/sections/special/britneyrihanna/

does this then make me a sex maniac? lols.

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I forgot to post this. Hear how I shut him up.

"Cover your mouth the next time you sneeze or cough. It's only polite."
Politeness doesn't work.
"So cover it because its dirty. Nobody wants to take in your germs."
Dirtiness doesn't work either.
"Would you like me to cough and sneeze in your face or food?"
"No, that's gross."
"Yes, it is. So cover your mouth the next time. WITH YOUR HANDS!"
.
.
.
"But why? We can't even see germs. They're not there. *coughs* See? see?"
(Prepare your weak hearts!)
"Well, can you see God?"
"No."
"Is he there?"
"Yes."
"So you can't see God but you know he's there. Same with germs. You don't see them but they are there."

Sorry dear dude God, I'm always using you. Just like everyone else does. heeheehee.

ok, wanna hear happy news?
FYP was submitted at 4.30pm 12 Apr 2011.

while that/there's a load off me (about 4kg so far), theres still 1 lit review, 1 grp report + presentation and a freaking test tmr and another oral in 2 weeks' time before its exams. but its ok, things will clear eventually.

did i say im going to be rich? ok yes i did. cause tuition is now 3 times a week :) not that i'd love to meet them so often but... its better than meeting people who... ok im not going to say it. i'll keep it to myself. and ah giu and ah yan. but oh well, going 3 times a week means im going to be richer.

was that a circular argument?

ive s/u-ed biz law. contemplating french too. its not THAT difficult but i dont have time to put in as much effort to study for it like i did with japanese and korean. or maybe just korean. didnt take much effort to MAKE ME want to revise japanese. yes, that is how much i love it. i really dont know why. somethings cant be explained.

so you can stop trying to analyze me. because for all we know, im better at it.

and so im talking to ah yan. well we've been talking quite a lot recently. and then she thinks im slacking my ass off after FYP is done. but refer to top, you know i have lots of things to do. Its like any other normal sem for me, except I managed to squeeze in FYP and s/u one elective. maybe two.

and i just told her, its because i took the path less travelled. but taking the path less travelled will mean you'll have more explaining to do. because some people just dont get it. brings back to our earlier issue on, im not taking a fantastic slack off my last semester so dont come asking me why am i taking so many mods in my last semester and that its very heavy workload.

frankly speaking, im still surviving and doing fine, its ok. maybe my bro told her. shes not asking me anymore. and we dont really talk. haha. its just some awkwardness. but nvm, we werent really close anyway.

and you have a big nose. (lols)

omg talk about bad karma, i lost my bus concession. but ive been using it for a good 2 weeks. the only weird thing is, i rmb putting it into my jeans pocket WHICH IS PRETTY DAMN DEEP. and i dont rmb touching the pockets at all until i was at the interchange and cldnt find the card but thought i had left it on the table and so today i was out on my usual flashpay card and its only till im home did i realise, i really cant find it.

well that card has my ugly photo on it thats gonna flash on the stage when i receive my grad cert. but dont make much of a difference, in it i looked like i had short hair (when i really just tied it up) and now i DO have short hair. and its awesome. i love it. lets see how much shorter its gonna grow!!! its really addictive. the cutting. esp when the stylist just does it the way you want it and hes quite cute. LOLS! i love his hair tts for sure. and tt supports my notion of 'when u want to get a haircut, find the person whos hairstyle u adore/agree with/accept' if that dude/woman has incorrigible hair, dont let them touch urs. its gonna turn out the same way. yes, tts spoken from experience. look at my sec sch photos n u'd know. never liked any of those hairdressers back then. and so i only call this current one 'my stylist'. as much as its weird cos i dont really think hes my stylist but i like the way he cuts my hair so i cannot just address him as 'hairdresser' thats such an understatement. simply put, ITS RUDE.

but im not saying its a guarantee he'll give u an awesome haircut too. its just that we very gnam. i hope he doesnt move away from JP. or i dont move away from JP. but i want to. LOL! or we could both move together so theres always gonna be someone to take care of my hair.

ok tts too much bimbotic talk abt hair. lets talk abt sth else...

my positive psych lit review is gonna be based on Optimism. i picked the topic. i think its interesting. but i must say i like my FYP topic more. its on memory. and i managed to fit language in.

that explains why im not going to work with MCYS. rather, why im not applying to them. oh... i dont know how will this go but its going to work out, somehow. but FYP taught me one thing.. you dont have to pay me alot. just pay me decent and if i like my job, im going to work like a cow for you. im a real workaholic.

you'll know if you've done something 4am-9am, 4am-9am, 6am-10am for three consecutive days. you're tired but you're still typing. and you're typing partly because you're afraid you cant finish. but mainly because you really want to produce something good.

i hope i get an A- at least. that was a circular entry. good night!

I'm going to become rich.

Awesome earphones.

Last 24 hours.

:)

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Was explaining 猪朋狗友 to the younger brother. The older brother doesn't get it that friends who are like pigs and dogs, aren't good friends.

"What about dogs? They are our good friends.", (or so) he says.
"Dogs, as dogs, are loyal good friends. People as dogs, aren't good, are they?"

What a topic. God and dog arent exactly my thing, little boy. Even though they are mirror images of each other.

I look upon money as my source of motivation.

love is blind. so blind. WHY, MY FRIEND, WHY?! 笑到极度快崩溃。

so i shushed the girl opposite me because she was talking really loudly on the phone. then i starred at her like "wtf?" because she looked back at me, smiling like i was being crazy.

and then my friend comes along to pick his gf off. yes, now the seat opposite me is empty. 天意弄人。朋友，我只能苦笑。*倒抽一口气*

please dont ignore me in class next week!

You have to see this. If you recognise it, good for you.
http://item.rakuten.co.jp/spu/3335/
ITS SO PRETTY HOW CAN PEOPLE TELL ME ITS UGLY?!
when something's sold out, you know its gorgeous. best part, I OWN ONE! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! Read 'おかげさまで完売いたしました！' it means 'sold out!' u fool!

I feel offended when...
we're walking towards each other and the path only has space for 3 people.
i am 1 and you are 2. ive moved to the edged of the path, the least space i could take up and you wouldn't move ur fat mass to give me tt tinniest bit of space im asking from you. DAMN, AM I NOT HUMAN IN UR EYES? or you underestimated my size? sorry, i have a skinny* face.


*my mum said that, not me!

I was thinking of closing FB. The photos irk me now. But I figured its a really good way of keeping contact with people, especially people overseas. I shall keep it. I think twitter will be my new best friend. So yesterday I did a very weird thing of camwhoring in my room and I was finally satisfied with one photo :) It's replacing my profile pics.

ARENT I GLAD MARCH IS OVER? woo! I just heard a ridiculous argument. Off to do my work. My body's just screwed.

Roses have thorns they say - Lady Gaga, just dance.